Chapter 1 (New Girl coming through)

''Alexis'', get up for school you don't want to be late on your first day of senior year'' my mom shouts from outside my room. I dig my head in the pillow, pull the blankets off of me, and let out a loud grunt. As I start to get ready, I think about all the memories that I had in high school and I sigh. I remember my first day at Tibecca High School and so much has changed since then. I never really had friends throughout high school but I was used to it because I was always quiet. I had only one best friend and his name was Jeremy.
We practically grew up together considering he was my neighbor and we went to the same school's since kindergarten. Jeremy was always there for me and if it weren't for him I would be dead. Your probably asking why but I'll explain that later on. He helped me through my problems and I'm thankful for him. Jeremy had short brown hair and the bluest eyes you could ever imagine. Everyone liked him in school even though he was gay which is surprising because everyone in my school is judgmental. Personally, I think it was because he was so good looking.
Jeremy was the captain, and quarter back of the football team so he was automatically a perfect ten; not to mention he had a good personality as well. Although he didn't come out till last year, I always knew he was gay because we told each other everything. He didn't tell me till the 8th grade, and I kept it a secret ever since. ''Alexis c'mon'' my mom yells snapping me out of my thoughts. I looked at the clock and it read 6:30 am; so I was still good because I had an hour to get ready. I walk to the bath room pull out a towel and place it on the hanger.
As I hop into the shower, the hot water feels amazing dripping down my back and I start to think about about how I was not excited to see majority of the people I hate at my school. The girls were conceited bitches, and the guys I didn't mind that much. I get out after 10 minutes and I decide to curl my hair today. To save time, I pick out my outfit while I wait for the curling iron to heat up. I go to my closet and theres clothes thrown all over, which makes it hard for me to pick out an outfit fast. After 2 minutes, I finally find an outfit; and I pick out a white crop top, light blue high waisted shorts, and a plaid shirt from urban outfitters. I decide to place them on my bed because my outfit was not complete until I got a pair of sunglasses.
With that being said, I walk over to my dresser and pick out one of my favorite pair of sunglasses. They were black vintage channel glasses and I loved them so much. I wore them everyday in the summer and it always completed my outfit. With my outfit finally being complete, I start to put on my clothes and tie the plaid shirt around my waist revealing a little bit of my stomach. I was never the girl to dress like this; but since I lost a lot of weight I felt confident. Growing up I was never skinny and thats all I wanted to be. I remember crying in my room trying to make myself throw up because I was so unhappy with the way that I looked.
I was never over weight but it was the pressure to be perfect which is what got to me. Jeremy always told me I was beautiful and to not care what people thought of me; but it was hard being the outcast at school when most of the girls would make fun of me. Last year towards the middle of the year was my breaking point. I became distant to Jeremy, and my family and started to change who I was. I became interested into rock and started to change my clothing. I was a completely different person and I couldn't fix myself as hard as I tried.
Since the beginning of junior year, I started to develop an eating disorder. No one in my family knew what was going on because I would always lie to them. When Jeremy saw the change in me he got worried but had no clue I actually had an eating disorder. He only suspected that I just wasn't myself lately and he became very curious. Personally I don't know why he cared so much because I was basically a mess; but we were best friends, and he had never left my side so I guess you can say thats why. One day he asked me what was wrong and of course I lied to him and said it was nothing personal just depression.
Once I told him that I felt this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach because I lied to him which is something I have never done before. Your probably asking why I did lie to him and my answer was because I didn't want to see him upset. I couldn't just face the fact for him to watch over me because he had his own problems going on in his family, and I didn't want to become a grenade to him. I told him I was getting help with my depression but that was just another lie to add on now. It all started when... knock knock; I automatically stop thinking and I hear the door open. It was my mom and she told me I had only 10 more minutes to get ready.
Shit I didn't want to be late so I tried to hurry up as fast as I could. I ran back into my bathroom and I started to curl my hair. Once I was done I decided to put it in a clip leaving it half up half down with 2 pieces hanging in the front of my face. Next was makeup and at this point I had only 5 minutes left so now was the time to hurry up. Since I didn't have a lot of time I just decided to put on foundation, bronzer, mascara, and a little bit of eyeliner. I had no time for eyeshadow but I kind of liked how I looked without it. I finished with 2 minutes despair and looked at myself in the mirror and smiled.
Was this real for me to actually be smiling for once because I thought I looked good? Not trying to sound conceited but I liked the way I looked so I decided to take a quick picture of myself. I wondered what people in school were going to think of me because I looked completely different and I began to feel sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I run downstairs and my mom has pancakes waiting for me with a bunch of other food. It was always a tradition to start the new school year off with a ''feast'' she would call it, but honestly I don't like to eat that crap anymore so I went over to the fridge; and just decided to grab a greek yogurt. As I sat down I chugged the yogurt down my mouth and was just about to leave when I got interrupted.
''Alexis oh my god you look beautiful'' Madison says to me. Madison was my little sister and for some reason she always looked up to me. "Thanks Mad, good luck at your first day of junior high today" I tell her. "Okay Mom, I need to leave now because I have to pick up Jermemy and I want a good parking spot so bye!" As I walk out my mom chases me outside and I hear her yell "good luck and call me when you get there so I know your safe." I laugh to myself and just nod my head.
As I walk to my car I just take a deep breath and take in the California air, and it feels so good to be myself again. This past summer I was gone at my Aunt's beach house in Maryland so I never even got a chance to see Jeremy at all so I was extremely excited to see him now. I missed him so much and I couldn't wait to just catch up like we used to. I wonder what he was going to think of me because he hasn't seen me all summer so I wondered what I would look like to him. Just thinking about it now made me nervous again and I snapped out of my thoughts. I unlock my doors and as soon as I get in I blast the air condition and the music.
When you live in California its always hot and today the temperature was 100 degrees and sunny. As I'm driving I finally arrive at his house; and wait for him to come out, so I decide to send him a text because he never hears the horn when I beep. In a minute he comes out and when I see him walk to the car, I start to feel my hands shake and here comes the nerves again. I couldn't even tell you why I was nervous because it was only Jeremy; but, since he was my best friend his opinions mattered to me and he was always honest. I guess I was nervous because I wondered maybe he wouldn't like me after he sees how much I changed. Jeremy was wearing a button down shirt, cargo shorts and vans which I had to say was my favorite outfit on a guy.
I thought Jeremy couldn't get any better looking than he already did but I was wrong. He changed so much and I couldn't believe how much hotter he got. As he gets into the car he hugs me and screams my name. I was still in shock and dozed out for a couple of seconds when he called my name again and realized I was day dreaming like I always do. ''Alexis you uh you look so different'' he says. I laugh and say "is that a good thing or a bad thing?"
He responds and he tells me ''no no definitely a good thing you are truly the most gorgeous girl I ever seen.'' When he says that I start to blush and thats something I never did before. Was I falling for him... I couldn't even tell you but I couldn't be because he was gay, snap out of it Alexis snap out of it I think to myself. ''Alexis you truly look amazing if you don't mind me asking I hope you dont uh'' and I interrupt him and start to laugh. "Are you kidding I feel better than ever and its because of the gym silly thanks all to you." "No you were the one that did it yourself I just gave you a little push trying to take a little bit of credit" and he laughs.
''Well you have to tell me all about how your summer went I was dying without you I missed you so much Lex.'' I missed you too I'm sorry I didn't call you all summer I was just extremely busy and I had a goal to set. ''I understand we could talk all about it on the way to school but with that being said are you ready to finally be a senior and have a wild year''? I laugh and tell him I don't know about that and as we drive we catch up and just talk about everything and how we missed each other so much. As the conversation went on I thought of how much I missed him and it felt good to be back with him. As we pull up to the school we get out and he whispers in my ear ''lets fucking do this.'' I laugh and think to myself what is everyone going to think of me now....?