Something Special

RESET ALL SETTINGS

RESET ALL SETTINGS
YES or NO

I blinked a few times as I stared at the screen. I have no tears to shed, no heart to feel like I'm shattering, but that is how exactly I feel right now. If I do have the right to feel as a robot.

I blinked one more time as my eyes read the options over and over. I knew I had to do this. I need to forget everything. I need to start fresh. I need to be fit for a normal human being. I need to forget about her, because she's my everything. Was.

I brought my index finger up to my screen, my fingertip only lingering above the first option. After a few more seconds of hesitation, I pressed down.

Just as when I thought everything was over, another question pops up on the screen attached to my arm.

ARE YOU SURE? THIS CANNOT BE UNDONE
YES, I'M SURE or NO, I AM NOT

I hesitated for the millionth time. I blinked only once, before staring at my screen for a long time. A very long time. Thoughts and thoughts rummaged my robot brain as I reread and reread the question.

Again, I brought my index finger up to the first option, slowly going down, millimeter by millimeter.

But only seconds away, I quickly moved my finger and pressed the second option.

My recordings. I need to watch all my recordings of her. Just one last. After this, then I will reset all my settings. All of it. I just want to see her and imagine that she's still here with me. Before I let go of her permanently. Before I wipe all my memories. Before I picture her as a stranger again just like the first day I heard her.

Before my Cara Adamson becomes just a Cara Adamson.