LOVE IS NOT FOR ME -

CH 13 - FIRST KISS!!

SANYU'S POV

"Sanyu, come down for evening snacks. I m waiting here" He hung the phone. It was a clear order from him as he didn't even wait till I reply. I cant stay away from him but cant face him either. What if he asks me about the thing I had told him yesterday? I wont be able to tell him. Also, after going back, I should avoid him or else I might fall for him completely!! he doesn't feel the same. Oh God, how this happened? Its just so impossible, I m falling for Rd, Mr. Randhir Singh Shekhawat whom I hated for no reasons beforehand. He thinks that I am different, not like the other girls who drool over his charm. What if he gets to know about my feelings? Will he break our friendship? I need him as a friend. While having a contradictory discussion on love him, I felt that Something wrong is going on. He is right. Love is beautiful and brings Happiness. But in my case, I know that this one-sided love will never complete. I will be only left with his memories and tons of pain. I should go down, he must be waiting

"HI" He greeted with a smile. I just passed him a smile.

"This is your parcel, I already took it." HE gave me the packet. I completed it while he didn't even utter a single word. He was only staring

"Stop staring. I have finished"

"Oh, lets go on an evening walk" He requested. I wanted to refuse but then, its impossible to do so

He took me to the same garden where I had almost revealed my disastrous past to him yesterday

"We performed well today, I think we can at least expect Jenesys, forget about the first prize"

"Ya.. Hope that we win a position. I would be on top of the world if it happens." A instant smile overtook my face and he noticed.

"Smile like this forever. Ur smile is so rare."

I didn't know why but tear drops started flowing down my cheeks. I could no longer hold them back which I had been doing the whole day

"Not again Sanyu. U know what, I cant see u crying. Thats a very big problem of mine."

He made me sit on a bench and sat near me patting my back "Dont cry. Yesterday, I thought that I should not interfere in your private life but now, u r compelling me to do so. Share it, u will feel better."

RANDHIR'S POV

I wanted her to cry her heart out. This really helps to feel better. She should share whats there in her heart or else she will die daily from inside. Then she said something which was beyond my imagination

"My parents are divorced and they abandoned me when I was 7 years old."

"What!!!!!! What the hell are u saying? I have gone to ur house so many times, they stay under the same roof and u also..."

"They are not my parents." I could see flood of tears flowing from her eyes "My father stays in London nd my mother stays in Singapore. They live their own lives independently without me."

FLASHBACK

SANYU'S POV

I m fed up of this regular fights. U think I m very small to understand all this, but believe me, I m far more mature than my age. Situation compelled me to act older. Everybody wants a simple but a happy family where we share thoughts, have dinner together and enjoy. This was my dream also. What is my mistake God? Cant u fulfill my small wish. Then I heard a slapping sound and ran towards my papa's room. Its not my parents room. They stay in different rooms, yes they do

"How dare u slap me Ranveer(Sanyu's father)?" my mother was standing there with one of her hand in her cheeks. This is a regular scene in our house

"Oh Jahnvi(Sanyu's mother), stop interfering in my life and I will stop giving u physical tortures"

"I m not afraid of ur threatening. I dont give a shit to it. If u can interfere in Kanan's life(her boyfriend), then why not I?"

"Dont take his name."

"U also stay with whores every night. I dont say anything. But now, I m done with ur nonsense."

"Then just leave me"

"Thats what I ll do. I have stayed with u for the sake of Sanyu but not now. She is just a mistake of a drunken night. I have my own life and wont compromise with it. Tomorrow, my lawyer will come and then only, we ll talk."

My mom slammed the door and left the house. Am I a mistake? What is my fault? DOnt they love me?

FLASHBACK ENDS

"The next thing I knew is that I stayed with my grandpa for 2 years but then, his health also started deteriorating. Then, I began a new life with my uncle and aunt"

"This means that they are ur Uncle and Aunt and not ur parents"

"Hmm.." I simply nodded.

"U should be grateful to them."

"Grateful, my foot. Nobody loves me. They love my wealth which my grandpa gave me after his death. I overheard their conversation one night and that day I realized that there is nothing called love. All are selfish." I again started crying. I have shared the biggest secret of my life with him. It was tough. I noticed tears in his eyes.

He looked at me and in no time, hugged me. My face got buried inside his chest. I felt complete, he put everything into the hug. Suddenly he broke the hug and started staring at my teary eyes. Slowly, inexorably, he presses his lips into mine. It's soft and gentle and chaste and maybe there's no fireworks or sparks, but it's better than that – it's a wave of warmth that fills me up, spilling out from my heart and the warmth of his lips on his and rushing to every corner of his body: the cracks in between his toes, the crooks of his elbows, the tips of his ears. Every inch of him is saturated with love.

What am I doing?

I immediately pushed him back and rush towards my room.

THAT WAS SANYU'S FIRST KISS. WHAT WILL HAPPEN NOW? IS THAT KISS USUAL FOR RANDHIR? OR HE TOO FEELS SOMETHING?

THANKS FOR READING. I HOPE U ENJOYED IT

WITH LOVE,

ANNA