Ako naman, ako nalang

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"parang awa muna"
"Isa pang pagkakataon"
"Hindi ko na muling uulitin pa"
"pleaseee.. ayusin natin to"

Pilit kong nililimot ang mga salitang yan. Sapagkat binabalot at pinapaalala parin nito ang sakit, ang lahat ng sakit noong araw na iyon. Yung araw nung nakita kitang masaya sa piling ng iba.

Hindi ako makapagsalita. Hindi ako makagalaw. It seems like the world stopped. The clock is not working. I'm paralyzed for awhile.

It's like I'm going to vomit, you both are naked, hoe.. omg... a hoe... a cheater. deceiver. 

Hindi ko matanto kung tatakbo ba ko, lalapitan ba kita at sasampalin kita o sasabunutan ko yung nasa tabi mo. Hindi ko na alam, sobra na kong naguguluhan.

I even stuttered when I said " Happy Anniversary " then my tears can't stop from falling. gosh. I didn't expect this. I never had a thought that it will happen.

The pain I have that time is so unbearable. So I ran away. Until I reached the sea. Its waves that gives a calmness in my heart.

That day is our 4years anniversary. We are supposed to celebrate it all day so I prepared so much. Pero ganun yung naabutan ko, ako yung nasurpresa ako yung nagulat.

Bakit? bakit? bakit mo nagawa to?