she used to wake up every morning smiling, knowing you are hers. You cant do any wrong by her because she loves you, shes willing to do anything it takes for you but then on the most awful night of her life you threw her away! you ripped out her heart and tossed it along with her happines. Now she wakes up numb.. if there is ever a feeling its only pain. This girl now wakes up wondering if this is real or if shes in a great big night mare. she stands in front of the mirror before her shower crying because shes discusted by her body now.. after you making her feel so good about her self she can no longer see any good on her body she cant bear to look any longer so she gets into the shower and along come her blades..
" 1 cut.. 2 cuts 3cuts more.." she stands in the shower watching the blood dribbling down her thighs wishing she could feel the pain but she doesnt.. She wants to scream but doesnt have the power to anymore.
she cant sleep.. she just lays there all night thinking.. she managed to get an hour sleep but it was rough her dreams full of him and only him..
then at school none of her friends understand the pain she feels so she smiles.. she hides it and waits till she gets home where she will be able to cuddle her blades over and over again and hope its enough to bleed to death. She goes back to the mirror and looks at herself then collapses and just cries so much she cries for a couple hours even while texting to her friends she tries to hide the new pain she can finally feel. thats it though there only numbness that she isnt real and the pain throbbing in her heart.. she continues in her new path forever more.. she will never be happy again and this is the new me.. I will never smile with plesure again..
