Why did I always see things differently from the rest of the same-aged kids?My point of view just wasn't as simple as their was.They were all so awfully similar while I wasn't like them, I was just being me and nothing more.I have to admit I was trying my best to be like them in the beginning, but I soon enough realized I will never be like the rest, there will always be something odd about me to them.They will always think about me as some weird girl but in all honesty I don't care enough for them to like me.
Girls my age are in such a hurry to grow up,to wear heals and short dresses,to go clubbing,to find boyfriend.Sadly, they don't even get what it is to be grown up.
Their idea of life is to marry rich man, live in the same town their parents and grandparents did only years ago and do the job their parents told is good for them. My idea of life is so much more complicated.I always wanted to travel.Just to get away from all the reality that is haunting me every day.Maybe other people wouldn't say something like that but I always saw reality and all that seriousness as unnecessary bothering adds in life.I would never merry man only for his material and social status because I don't find myself as dumb girl who needs support from her husband or parents.I want to grow up in one independent and successful women with job that is paid enough for my needs,enough so I wouldn't need any help from any one.That is the reason why school is important to me,for my future.I would like my life to be exited and full of unexpected moments,opposite of what girls my age want.They want routine,day after day, everything same or how they like to call it:'Safe life' .I wish I could do a job I love but since I'm still discovering this messed up world around me and I'm still figuring myself out I won't know what my dream job would be any time soon.
This world around me:people,school,kids,friends,just society in general,it always intrigues me to highest level and ironically never fails to let me down.They often find the new way to disappoint me and I'm sincerely hoping they will change my mind soon because I'm very young and I already don't like it here.I guess it gets better with years as lots of people say around here.
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My messed up world
Non-FictionWARNING: This is some personal stuff that I write about myself when I'm bored,some kind of diary or whatever.So I suggest you not to read this.But if you want to be stubborn little carrot then go ahead and read it,it won't do any harm,right?Just ke...
