꧁༺Loser (G.B.D) ༻꧂

T W E N T Y S E V E N

"Gray I'm so sorr-" he cuts me off
"Don't even say your sorry ellie" he spits
"Gray..."
"No ellie don't try and tell me that you know how I feel because you can't possibly know what I'm going through right now. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't even talk to the man without wanting to cry my eyes out but I can't do that because I need to stay strong. Everyone else is so why can't I. Why can't I stay strong ellie?" He sobs
"Grayson it's hard. It's always going to be hard. And you don't need to be strong. Being strong isn't going to prove anything sometimes you need to be weak and there is nothing wrong with that"
"No I do need to be strong. For my mum. For Cameron. For Eth and most importantly for dad but I just can't do it. So I drown my emotions in alcohol and random chicks I don't even know the names off but I don't care. And I know I need to be strong and make him proud but I don't give a Shit because it's too painful and when I start to care and be weak I start to crumble."
"Grayson. Trust me when I say this it's not going to be easier if you continue drinking and hooking up with chicks and you'll regret-" he cuts me off
"No ellie you don't get to be like them telling me what to do with MY LIFE! You don't get to do that because you will never understand!" Grayson  yells and try's to walk out of my room.
"My mum died of cancer... that's why she isn't here. That's why my dads a alcoholic and can't work." I sigh
He slowly turns back around and closes the door
"Ellie.." he trails off and tries to say something else but I cut him off
"So don't speak to me like I don't know how you feel" I say a little louder "don't you dare speak to me like I can't understand you because I can. I've been there and believe me Grayson when I say this to you the fact that your dads dying won't change. You can hope and you can pray but it's not going to happen. So you need to suck it up and grow a fucking pair of balls because YOU can't continue being like this. You can't continue acting like a spoilt teenager that thinks he can do whatever the fuck he wants just because he has it bad at the moment. Guess what Grayson we all have it bad but we deal with it." I yell at him with tears in my eyes and he looks down in shame.
" I knew I should of never of told you" he spits looking up at me with those dark eyes. He runs out of my room but I catch up with him and push him back.
"NO !" I shout "you don't get to run away from me again." I say. He tries to barge past me but I keep on pushing him back
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME ELLIE!" He yells
"I want you to talk to me Grayson!" I shout throwing my arms up into the air.
"Fine! You want to talk! Then let's talk!" He says angrily turning into my living room and aggressively sitting on my couch. I cautiously follow him and he slaps the seat next to him.
"Come sit! Let's talk! Come on let's talk about how screwed up I am or how much of a disappointment I am. Or ooo here's a good one how much I don't want my dad to die" he says and I shake my head lightly with tears running down my cheeks
"COME ON!" He yells and jump back a little "let's talk! This is what you want right? You want to know all about me because you think YOU can understand ME. " He yells
"No" I mutter
"NO?" He questions
"No" I say louder
"THEN WHY DO YOU FUCKING CARE SO DAMN FUCKING MUCH!" He yells standing up. And that was when I had it. I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth
"BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU GRAYSON" I burst . His breathing becomes lighter and he walks up to me with darkness in his eyes. His grabbed my face and I thought he was going to push me down but instead he smashed his lips on to mine. I was shocked at first but I returned the kiss and put my hands on his neck as his hands trailed down to my waist gripping me tightly like he was scared to let go because he'd lose me. He'd lose this. I then hear the door open and we quickly break apart. Dylan walks in and stops in shock of the sight of Grayson Dolan inside my house.
"So ellie thanks for the art homework" Grayson mutters pushing past Dylan.
Dylan watches him leave and then turns back to me and I'm still frozen still.
"Why on earth was he here?" Dylan asks whilst closing the door
"Art home work" I lie.
"Why does he want art homework if he doesn't even attend school half the time?" He questions "and why would he come to you?" He questions even further.
"God I don't know dyl!" I shout.
"Have you been crying?" He asks and I shake my head in a no response.
"You have your eyes are red!" He exclaims.
"Dyl I'm fine can you maybe go I'm not up for revision" I say honestly
"Did he hurt you?" He asks coming closer examining me.
"No dyl he just wanted art homework!" I say getting more stressed by the minute
He steps away and holds his hands up in he aur
"I was just checking... so I'll pick you up tomorrow in my new car?" He says with a wink and I give him as weak smile as I show him out.

I run up to my broker room and take in everything which has just happened

Grayson

Me

Grayson and me

Grayson's dad

Grayson's dad is dying...