Fuck off the world that we say when we want people to leave. But the things is that sometimes we say it but we didn't really mean it. Sometimes we say it because we want to hear the other person to say, no I am not leaving you. The thing is that if I ever say that to you it because I want you to tell me that you are not leaving. Most of the time when I say it to people they just leave. To be honest it ever hurt me but when I said it to you. To that one person that i love so fuck much. Even if I really shouldn't because of want you did. I still do and that why it hurts so much. Ever day I have some tell me to just forget you. They say that I have to except that you move on. But I feel like i did except that you move on. But the only thing is that I haven't and people have to except that. I really don't know how I feel. I sometimes feel that I didn't want you back but then I didn't want you to move on even if you already did. I sometimes think what we could have been if we never want are on ways. I wish we never run away from each but let be honest you run away from me. But me been the stupid person that I am I want after you. But then I just lost my breath and gave up. It not like I want to it because I hand to. I hand to catch my breath. It was hard because I wouldn't stop run after you. I am so stupid because i actually thought that I was going to catch up to you or you would wait for me at one point. But I didn't catch up and you didn't wait for me either. So now I am waking alone and I am not going to lie. But sometimes I wish I would see you In front of me. That I would see you standing there and you yelling at me that you are sorry and that you want me back. But that is only a wish or fairytales that would only happen in a movie. I have to Face that I live in reality not in a fairytale.
