Heart of Ice (On Hold)

Shopping trip

The song on the side inspired the shopping scene so check it out!! It's Fashion by Lady Gaga. I LOVE this song and just HAD to add it to one of my chapters.

Recap-

Damon-

God, she was beautiful.

Her face was half-shadowed by the fireplace. He could see her eyes, shining with light. Her skin like porcelain. I don't know who leaned towards who, but suddenly, there was only an inch between us.

Then, there was a knock on the door.

Anne blinked. We jerked apart.

"I'll get it." I said. She obviously not planning to move anytime soon. Her face was a bright pink. Oh, she looked adorable like that. She cleared her throat, looking pointedly at the door.

Oh, right. Door.

I headed over to the door and let Zack and Lilly in.

"Hey Anne." chirped Lilly. She was still blushing profusely, and murmured something about heading to bed and fled to her room. I chuckled. I guess I wasn't the only one affected by that little moment.

Chapter 8-

Anne-

I was pacing the room anxiously. I didn't know how to act around Damon after last night. I was pretty sure I was just imagining things but that didn't stop me. Lilly, Damon, and I were going shopping.

"Anne? You ready?" called Lilly.

"Yup, just give me a second." I yelled. I went into the bathroom to fix my hair but what I saw made me freeze in surprise. I raised my hand to see if the girl in the mirror was really me. The girl in the mirror raised her hand too. I touched my cheek gently.

I realized...I had let myself start feeling again.

When I came here, surrounded by happy, normal people, I had let my guard down. I could even see my feelings on my face.

"What are you doing? You're just going to get hurt again." i whispered to myself. I knew I was right, but I didn't want to close off again. I don't want to become cold and unfeeling again. No, I wouldn't be like that again. I liked feeling. It made me...

"Happy?" i whispered. I slowly started to nod. "I do. I feel...happy." i said with a small smile. I wouldn't cut off my emotions. But I wouldn't come open myself all the way again. No, i would feel basic emotions ,but I wouldn't let myself develop permanent emotions for anyone here. As if to remind me of him, I felt that pull on my shield again. I hunched over with a grunt. I could feel the memories trying to crush my will. I forced my shield up. With a gasp, I straightened. I looked at my reflection again. I realized, I couldn't let Zach know I felt anything. I was positive he would use it against me.

"You've pulled bigger bluffs before. Don't be a wimp." i muttered, then cursed under my breath, noticing my eyes were a dead giveaway. They shine with emotion, I thought with disgust. God, what's wrong with me. I sighed in defeat, I really didn't want to do this but I had to. I closed my eyes and brought forward a flicker of memory. The last time I saw mother. I felt the words she said come back at full force.

Useless.

Disappointment.

Mother was always disappointed in me because I was the first born. During that time, you had to be a boy to be allowed to run your family estate. Since her first born, me, was a girl, the estate would be passed down to her brother. She hated her brother. 

I opened my eyes, hoping it worked. Yup, it worked. My eyes were like they were before. Flat. Cold. Void of all emotions.

Dead.