Kakashi x Reader Lemon

Regrets

Your POV
I felt soft around me. Something much more soft than that chill in my heart that had seemed to turn it into ice. Something is off. I told myself.
Something is off. The cold, the hurt... It's eating me up.

I woke up in a puddle of my own cold sweat. "What the hell-"
The memories slapped me in a brutal reminder. Kakashi's cold face, my tears, his sudden rejection, tears, hurt, bed, tears, waking up, tears.
Shit.
Again, my reactions because of Kakashi have always been way too strong for anything normal. The tears kept flowing down. I-i still don't understand...why did he reject me so suddenly...and right after I sucked his dick!!

"ARGHH!!" The navel of my stomach felt like it was being ripped apart. Of course, this type of pain hit way too close to home. It was something I lived with. Every single day, I bared with it. It came and went as it pleased, triggered by any intense emotions.
But why now? Why after a whole day of painless pleasure, why does it start now?!

"NGNNH." Tears were leaving red marks down my cheeks as I clenched my stomach in pain. "Damn this fucking curse!! DAMN YOU FUCKING KAKASH-"

There was a knock at my door. Only one person would visit me this early in the morning. I sighed.

"RYKU WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT?!" From the door came a muffled sound.
"U..uhh.. I just wanted to check up on you..also I wanted to ask yo-" I inhaled shakily.
"NO I AM NOT FUCKIN FREE TONIGHT OKAY?! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE FOR FUCKS SAKE!!" Of course, because of my amazing luck, a loud freaking sob escaped my mouth the second I finished with my usual angry demeanor.
"Yo (name), you good fam? Open up!"
"NO!!" A shuffle was heard from behind the door, then the click of the doorknob. "Oh! Its open."

Ryku walked in and swished his light brown hilighted pixie cut out of his green eyes. As soon as he saw me, lying on one side, my face streaked with red, clutching my stomach tightly, no words needed to be said. He was my best friend, my only friend, if you don't count that stupid Kakashi. Kakashi. I choked. I felt a warm arm envelop me.
"Yo. Shh..it's okay. It'll all be okay." I curled into his warmth as he slowly stoked my hair. This was normal between us. I've been living with this pain since I can remember. He's the only one who comes to comfort me. It's like he's always there when I need him, even if at times I don't want him.

I always wondered why he cared so much about me. He's really the best person in my life. The way he cares about me, the way he treats me, is unlike anyone else. He's really a great friend.

I turned my head to look at him once the pain in my stomach subsided a bit. The returning smile I got was one bright enough to light up a bonfire. His aqua green eyes showed pure devotion and adoration. I sniffed and snuggled deeper into his arms.

"Ryku..you're a..a..."
"Hmm?" I could swear I felt his heart rate accelerate a bit.
"Great friend." The inaudible sigh behind me was quite obvious even though it was being concealed.

Whatever. I'll deal with that later. Now I only have one issue..

Kakashi...