So after Joe left, I basically laid in a ball on the couch until the next morning wen Darren called. It was thursday so he would be coming home tomorrow at like 5ish. I told him I would meet him at the airport, and got off the phone quickly, kinda pissed that just last night he was pissed and had no reason to be really, how would he react if he knew what has happened since he left?!
At the airport, I sat in the car for a minute to think. I knew what he wanted to do tonight, but I just wasn't in the mood.. He would probably be angry if I didnt go along with him since he hasnt had any action since he left.. I got out of the car and slowly walked into the waiting area. I checked my phone and was sad when I saw Joe hadn't called... It was 5:10 now, his plane should have landed..
"Lils!!"- I heard and spun around in my seat.
There he was, in jeans, a plain tshirt, and those glasses I loved. I could tell he had goofy socks on as well as he walked towards me. I couldnt help but grin. I got up and walked over to him. He pulled me into a hug and his hands already started trailing down.
"Not now Darren!! Sheesh calm down!"-I said in a hushed voice
"I want you so bad right now, it's been awhile babe."
I just shook my head and started walking out. Once settled in the car, with Darren now driving, it got weird. Usually I was more excited to see him.. Now I couldn't wait for tonight to be done! His right hand was on my thigh the whole drive home and he would occasionally rub or squeeze a little, but I wasnt turned on at all. It actually disgusted me a little bit.. When he parked the car, he immediately began kissing me. I kissed back a little reluctantly, which he realized becas he pulled back. He looked angry now..
"Whats wrong with you?? Am I not good enough anymore ?!"--He half yelled
"Im just not in the mood.. Can we just watch a movie and snuggle?"--I suggested
"Really Lily?! What did I miss?! When did my girlfriend become innocent?!"
"whatever Darren, I dont want to do anything, so we wont. You cant force me, and its not like we cant do it another time!"
He slammed his door behind him and came to my side. He pulled my arm and led me to our apartment. His attitude was scaring me, were we always like this? As soon as he shut the door and locked it, he pushed me into the wall and kissed me. I pushed back and started walking to the kitchen. Bad idea, he rammed me into the countertop and I could barely breath.
"Darren!!"-I managed to yell
"I fuckin love you and this is how you treat me?! I'm gonna change your mind, you will be begging me by the end of it!"-He said into my ear
I half whimpered as I fought back the urge to cry. This was like my many nightmares of abuse, but this was real.
He layed me on the counter and got on top. He kissed aggresively as his one hand gripped my waist and the other cupped my cheek. I felt a tear escape and he smirke at me.
"Honestly Lily, what made you so soft? You loved it rough before! Is this Walkers doing?? He twisting your thoughts about me?"
I slapped him across the face and forced myself up. He was shocked by my action and pulled my hair. He had me in his arms now, and thats when he snapped back..
"O my God, i'm so sorry Lily, I dont know what came over me.. This whole Joe and you situation bothers me."
I did nothing just walked out of his arms and crawled ito bed where I cried myself to sleep.
