EMOTIONS

Chapter 6 •• Summertime

~3 months later~

(Kendra's P.O.V.)

It was summertime now. The school year went by so fast and Match and I have only gotten closer. Yeah,  he still has his TERRIBLE anger issues but I love everything about that boy. I wouldn't change a thing about him. I have fallen in love with Mitch... Mitch Lucker... I thought to myself. I still haven't figured out that special thing about him yet. I swear that handsome boy is going to turn into a legend. I didn't know where Mitch and I were going with our relationship but all I knew what that we were going UP. I was so happy with him and I've never seen him smile so much! Vicki tells me that he's never been this happy before. That there's finally some kind of happiness in his eyes. Well, good. We both make each other happy. That's good right?

Well, I was going to a party tonight with him, Beth and Drew. Should be interesting to see how he got when he was drunk. I didn't know what to expect but Vic said it was bad. I was kind of scared to find out to be honest with you. I had to go pick up Beth before the party so I got ready in a tight blue dress with my music high and let me tell you, my make up looked flawless! I went to go pick up Beth and I told her about Mitch getting drunk and how I was scared to find out how he got. She assured me that it'd all be okay. She knew how I was with him from the very beginning. Even before I knew.

Surprisingly we arrived at the party at the same time as Mitch and Victoria so I walked over to them quickly, kind of leaving Beth behind. I kissed Mitch and dragged Vicki away so we could talk.

Kendra: Should I be scared about how he gets when he gets drunk?

Vicki: Kendra, don't worry about it. I'm sure he'll be fine but he gets crazy when he's drunk so just prepare yourself for the worst.

Prepare myself for the worst? What was the worst? How bad could he really get when he was drunk? Was he abusive? What in the world am I in for? So many questions that I had no way to answer. Victoria sure as hell wouldn't answer them. She barely answered the one I had and she told me to prepare for the worst which made me worry even more. Wow. Helpful!

I was outside for about five minutes just thinking about this until I finally decided I should go into the party and find Beth even though she had Vic. Beth and Vic started getting closer when Mitch and I started dating. I guess we kind of pushed them out and they turned to each other. I went to go find Mitch first though. I found him in the kitchen. Drinking already? Crap. What would happen? I was scared. So scared. I don't even know why! I went over to him and asked him how many more of those he was planning on drinking. He didn't answer. Ignoring me? Already drunk? I was confused. I snatched his drink from him and tried to see if he was sober or not. He wasn't, as far as I could tell so I let him be and went to hang out with Bethany and Victoria. I was so worried about what would happen that I couldn't even concentrate on their conversation so I walked off and just walked around to try and get my mind off of it because I mean, it really wasn't that big of a problem. Why was I so worried about it all? I saw a couple kissing. Wait. I thought to myself... there's no other couples here except for Mitch and I. Not that there was so many people there anyway so I walked over to them and found Mitch kissing another girl. This perky red chick that looked like a skanky barbie doll. I yelled "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING 'BABE'" He looked at me surprised that I found him. I had tears in my eyes at the sight of seeing him kissing another girl. My boyfriend kissing another girl right in front of my eyes. My Mitchy. Why? I was so lost and hurt, I didn't know what to do so I ran off. He followed me. I turned back and screamed "WHAT DO YOU WANT?"

Mitch: I'm sorry......

Kendra: For what? Putting your lips on that whore?

Mitch: Sure. If that's how you want to put it...

Kendra: Yes, that's how I want to put it!

I was yelling at him and I started crying.

Mitch: Why are you crying?

Kendra: It's not exactly easy seeing your boyfriend kissing another girl... right in front of you!

I walked away and got in my car leaving Beth with Victoria. Victoria would give her a ride home. I drove to Mitch's and went up to his room. He had pictures of us everywhere! How could he do that? I wrote a note to him...

"Mitch,

         it hurt seeing that. Was it the liquor?... I'm hurt and I came here to write you a note saying good bye, that we were over but I saw all of these pictures of us all over all of your walls. I don't want to say good bye to you. Come over tomorrow when you're sober.

                    --Love,

                              Kendra."

I laid in his bed for a while, crying and I finally decided to go back home. The next day came around so fast and I woke up to see Mitch laying next to me. I looked at the time on my phone and it said 11:00 AM. I wondered what time he got here but I didn't want to wake him so I went to take a shower while he slept. When I got out and got dressed, I went downstairs to say hi to my mom and get a snack but I saw Mitch on the couch and my mom was in the kitchen so I went over to Mitch and told him to come back to my room. I got a bag of cookies and went to my room with him. We talked about the night before and he apologized uncountable times and thanked me for staying even more times. He wrapped his arms around me.

(Mitch's P.O.V.)

Would we last until 11th grade started or would I ruin it? I don't want to ruin it. I love this girl. She's my everything. The only one who makes me feel better, who makes me feel alive and smile a real smile. I wanted to take her somewhere this summer with Austin and Vicki. Maybe to Florida. That'd be nice. We live in California so we'll see what Austin and Vic have planned. I heald her tight, not ever wanting to let her go but I had to go. I had to go talk to my sister about this. So I told her I'd be back later and she smiled and walked me out. I got into the car and drove back over to my house just to find Vicki and Austin making out. It pissed me off for some reason so I yelled at them. "STOP MAKING OUT AND GET A ROOM. DAMN." And then, I ran to my room, slamming the door and I called up Kendra telling her to come over. She did. Thank God. I wanted to make plans for us to go to Florida together. Just me and her.