Guilty Conscience(BWWM)

Prolouge

When you are alone in your bedroom, and you can't seem to get away from the monsters in your head. They keep screaming for you to let them out but you're afraid that you won't be able to control them if you do. The screams are getting louder and louder and you feel like you're losing your mind because you're the only one who can hear them. You feel suffocated in your own house and that's not good, you can't seem to escape this dark room. "Why do I feel this way?" You asked yourself. I don't know maybe because I killed my parents and now I feel guilty about it even though they hurt me so much. No 11 year old should go through the things I've been through. My dad's friend raped me when I was a child and my parents let it happen. They never did anything about him beating me and I couldn't do anything because I was so small and he was a giant compared to me. Now I'm 20 with a 9 year old daughter. She's the best thing that has happened to me even though her father Anderson and her grandparents were evil bastards. I don't want my daughter to know who her father was. My childhood was the worst and I want my Lizzy to have the best life because when they come looking for me because I killed my parents I don't want them to hurt her because of the choice I made at a young age. They have been looking for me for years now and I tried so hard to not get caught. I changed my hair style and color, my appearance and everything but one day I was walking to my house and one of my dads friends recognized me so I ran so he wouldn't know where I lived. So that brings us to present time of me moving from Italy to France. My life in France has been so amazing. Oh and did I forget to mention my parents were in the Mafia. That's why I feel like I'm being watched. I made a bad decision of killing the mafia leader and his wife.