My Punch Drunk Love

Chapter 14. After Shock

Chapter 14. After Shock  

Joey’s POV

I opened my eyes and caught my breath as Matt pulled out of the kiss. We both stood there, staring at each other with our eyes wide open and stunned as hell. I can’t believe that he kissed me.

I know it was a simple kiss, our lips just met for a few seconds, but what surprised me are the sparks that are rushing through me even know that we are apart.  The intensity that I felt when he suddenly crashed his lips into mine after our fuming exchange of words, was enough to make me forgot what I was saying and where I was. It scared the sh*t out of me.

Muttering a curse, he slapped his forehead with his hand and closed his eyes, as if he suddenly realised what had happened. He opened his eyes and met my gaze. There was a mixture of regret and annoyance in it.

He didn’t really want to kiss me, I realized. I took a deep breath.

“That...” He started, dropping his eyes on the floor. “That was...”

“Nothing.” I snapped, not removing my eyes from him.

He looked up at me and I saw a glint of hurt for a second before a blank expression took over once again. “Yeah... That was nothing.”

I gave him a small nod, I can’t help but feeling disappointed. “You should leave.” I said in a low voice as I turned away from him. 

He stood there for a second and let out a sigh. He then started walking away towards the door without even glancing back.

As soon as I heard the door shut, I let out a deep breath. I felt my insides shake, making me seat at the foot of my bed. I placed my hand over my chest and felt the furious beating of my heart.

“I can’t...” I whispered to myself as I closed my eyes.

I had kissed a lot of guys for the past few months, probably even a hundred. I have done serious make out sessions with random guys, but it never made me feel like this. That one simple kiss made me feel shocked, furious, nervous, upset, guilty and surprisingly happy, all at the same time. I can’t understand how all these different emotions were able to fill me. I thought I was gonna explode.

That kiss wasn’t intentional. Matt was as surprised as I was. I can clearly remember the regret in his eyes when he looked at me, it made me feel worse.

Letting out a loud sigh, I shook my head and decided to forget that it ever happened. We were just caught up in the moment. It didn’t mean anything, I told myself.  It was just a damn mistake.

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The days quickly passed as normal as I spent every day going all around London and enjoying every famous pub that was built in this wonderful city. I am enjoying my stay here. I learned a lot of things about the people and their culture. It kinda made me feel like I was a different person. It made me forget, and I felt great.

Matt and I were back to the usual, not talking to each other. There were a few times that I would see him looking at me but when I turned towards him, he would just look away, appearing to be angry.  I really don’t understand this freakin’ bastard, he sure was as complicated as hell.

It was Thursday night and I was exhausted from doing shopping, so I decided that I am not gonna go and party tonight but rather just stay at home.

Suze was making a sumptuous dinner downstairs, which I suppose she was expecting some visitors joining us.

It was thirty minutes past seven when Sam knocked on my room and told me that dinner was ready. Wearing a loose hanging shirt that fall off on one of my shoulders and short denim cut offs, I grabbed a ponytail on my table as I headed out of my room, placing my dark blonde hair on a messy bun while I followed Sam downstairs.