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-the names will be changed
-all of this is 100% true
**-i'm warning you ahead of time, some of this stuff might be gross to y'all, but it happened!**
-and, i don't remember everything that happened to me exactly, but i'll try my best.
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When I was born, I was perfectly fine. I have no idea how old I was, but I got really sick. I started throwing up really bad, and my parents just thought it was the stomach bug, so they gave me some medicine and went back to their lives. It wasn't just the stomach bug.
I got worse. I started throwing up blood. My mom went out of town, so it was just my dad and I. I was probably three months old.
My colon ruptured. "Number 2" was leaking all in my body, and before all that exits the body, it's toxic. I couldn't poop, so I just threw it all up.
The first surgery I had the doctor did it wrong, so that's what made my colon rupture. When I got the second surgery, I got a Colastamy. And it's like they pull out the thing that makes all your poop develop, yeah they pulled that out. I had it like that for a year. They fixed it up a year later, and I was all good.
What they figured out was I didn't have those nerves that told me I had to go to the bathroom.
3rd Grade Year:
I still couldn't use the bathroom right. So, my parents wanted me to have another surgery. I did, and they did it wrong. so we went through all that, again. Instead I had an Olastomy. Same thing, but on the right side of my stomach.
But, I'm all fixed now. The doctor, and everyone else I told that to calls me a Miracle Child.
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When I was about 8 or 9 I was at church and I asked Jesus to come into my heart, you know because everyone else was doing it. A few months later I saw my cousin get baptized, and I decided I wanted to get baptized, so I did. I thought I was saved that whole time. I lived an un-like Christian life.
I got together with this guy, and he claimed to be Christian also. We didn't have sex or anything bad like that, but he was a bad influence on me. He didn't go to church, and he cussed and had a perverted mind. So, he's my boyfriend and I followed in his footsteps. I started cussing and had a perverted mind.
I still went to church, I just covered up what I was doing and acted like I was a good Christian.
During this time I was in the 6th grade, so at our church I was with all the kids hearing the little Bible stories that everyone knows.
This guy and I were on and off, and I finally broke up with him. In a few weeks I was going to be going to a youth camp with my youth.
After, the guy and I broke up, this other guy and I started talking. He was also a bad influence but, worse.
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At camp, the guy was preaching and he was saying, "Get in the boat with Jesus. If you don't get in the boat with Jesus, you will end up in hell." That really touched my heart. I was thinking to myself, 'I'm gonna go to hell if I don't get my life together.' I went up that night and re-dedicated my life. I went home and talked to that guy, and turns out he was atheist. But, I still talked to him. Which was a mistake.
I figured out that he had a girlfriend the whole time we were talking. He would always tell me that I was so beautiful and how much i meant to him. He used me, and the guy I was with before I started talking to him, he used me also! I was being used by two different guys! They are no longer in my life. They may think I'm not beautiful, and they may think that there is no reason for me to be living, but there is one Person who knows I'm beautiful, and He knows I have a purpose for my life, and that's God.
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I was very self-conscious, I have a skin disease. It's the same skin disease Michael Jackson had. I have no pigment in my skin, and it's all over my legs. I always wore pants, and I didn't like showing off my legs or my stomach. I have scars all over my stomach from all the surgeries. But, when I realized that I am beautiful in my own way, I didn't care what people thought of me.
Everyone single person out there is beautiful in their own way. If a guy tells you you're ugly, don't let them put you down, because you are beautiful. There's always one Man who will always think you're beautiful, God.
