Can't Believe It

"Adventures of The Mall" Chapter 3

     We pull up to the mall, after a car ride of 30 minutes filled with singing to the top of our lungs and just being complete jackasses. It is a pretty decent mall.

I love going here and not just for getting more cologne and new shoes. No. To check out the LADIESS. That is why I go to the mall. I just look. I really don't communicate. I am awkward with communicating with a girl I don't know. I know I said I want someone to hold yadda yadda yadda. At the same damn time, if I see a beautiful girl. I can't grow a size to talk to them. I'm a nervous wreck. I get sweaty, clammy, and I stutter and shake like a chihuahua on cocaine.

It is THAT bad. Anyways, there are beautiful girls everywhere but none I would really want to carry on a relationship. There are some girls I would and those are the ones I would be a wreck with. Others, not meant for me.

We make it to the entrance of the mall. As soon as we make it through the door.

"Mommy look," I follow his finger to Children's Palace.

"Come on you," I pick him up and walk in. He loves this place. I can't blame him. They have some cute stuff for little ones like him. I put him down and I start to be dragged from one side of the store to the other. He never loses energy, I swear.
    

We finally get out of there. One hour. ONE hour of being dragged around like a rag doll and being a clothes rack to my son. Judy was laughing the whole. We make it out before he can get his hands on something else. Three bags full already. Three, I say. That boy can shop. Seriously, no one will ever know if I got the right baby or not. The world may never know.
    

We have been everywhere in the mall. Nike, Jordan's, Children's Palace, Foot Locker, Bath and Body Works, Journey's, Clair's, Snap back, Urban Outfitters, Zara. You name it. Also Candyland. We can't forget about that one.

We literally got so much candy that the manager came to us asking, "If y'all are planning to sell our candy for your own business then you will have to leave now."

We laughed in his face which wasn't a good idea. Long story, story short we almost got kicked out of Candyland for committing a crime we were not even thinking of doing. Well, for a split second but then Judy said that no one is taking her candy. So that idea was out the window in less than....2.3 seconds.

We were now on our way to Spencer's to get me some shirts. Judy was going to stay with Avery because this is not a store for a 5 year old. Not even close to innocence in this store. I got my shirts. I also got some mug that had Rick and Morty swallowing barf. What can I say? I like the weirdness of the store. I also got me a blanket with Harley Quinn and all her devious and sexy glory.

I can tell that Avery is getting very sleepy even though we haven't eaten all day. We go to the Chik-Fil-A here. I got me a sandwich and fries. Avery some nuggets and fries with a small water. Judy ordered the same as me.

"Copy cat," I stuck out my tongue at her. I pulled out my wallet to pay. She stopped me. I gazed at her.

"No, I'm paying." She shook her head and took out her card about to hand it to the cashier. I took the card from her hand and raised above my head and said. "No I'm paying. Deal with it."

She took my wallet and put it behind her back.

"Looks like you don't have the resources to pay, huh?" I could tell that people behind us were getting...well...annoyed. The cashier wasn't so happy either. Oh shit.

"Ummm sorry about this," I lower my hand and give it back to Judy. She ends up paying. I am still ill about that but can't do anything about now.

We get our food and eat it making conversation about anything and everything. I look at Avery and he is almost done and struggling to keep his eyes open. I was slick waiting for him to have a full face of honey mustard smeared everywhere. I am such a great mother.

     I ended up carrying him and a dozen bags. We were almost to where we begun in the beginning of this journey but Judy wanted to go to Sephora. My arms are burning because this boy is sleeping good on me.

I can even see drool running down his mouth. The puddle on my shirt was growing by the second. He is giving me no mercy. I told her to hurry up please.  She finally made it out for what it seemed like a whole decade.

We made it to the car and stacked all the bags up in the back. I hardly could see the back mirror. We are on our way to my house just humming to the radio. It's 6:32 and I am freaking tired as hell. Tomorrow is going to be hard on me. It's June 2. The leaving of my mother anniversary. I still tear up. She was so caring and a gift from god. Then she had to leave. I have no idea why she left but she just left me. She never came back after that. It's this one song that reminds me of her. Jealous is what it's called. The reason why because I feel that nature is closer to her than I ever will be again. I am jealous because I want to be close to her again and I...I just want to see her again.

After that tragedy, it seemed like that was just the beginning of my life going down a dark path. I started doing things I shouldn't have. I started thinking different about certain things. I don't trust people as easy.

The only person I trust is Judy. She knows how much that trust is valued. I know that I have other friends and my crush but I don't trust them as much as Judy.

I am scared of commitment. I do want someone to be a cuddle buddy with but to be in a relationship with me they have to be willing to wait a while for me to truly trust them. They have to be ready for me to be a little clingy when we have been in a long term relationship. The reason being is because if I have fallen for you. I want you to be there. I want you to catch me and never leave me. I know at times you won't be there physically and all but I want to know that you are spiritually there for me. I want to be able to feel your presence. I know it sounds weird but it's just me. I don't know why it's me but it is.

I look to my right and Judy was sound asleep. Her head laid on the window. She is there even when we are not physically together. I know I can count on her.

Even though, sometimes she's gone because of her job. She does makeup for celebrities and people of that importance.

I am so proud of her.

I know I can count on her to be there for support or to put me back in my place. I love her. She is a gift that I will never be able to understand why I deserve.

I make it back to my house and pull up the drive way. I look at my watch and it's almost 7:10. I get all the bag out. Both of them are still sleep. I grab Avery carefully out of his seat. I walk him to his room and lay him on the bed, gently.

I walk back outside to pick up Judy and smile at her when she groans and stirs in her sleep. I shut the car door with my foot and make my way back to the house for the third time. I shut the front door with my foot and lock it skillfully with Judy still in my arms. I put her on my bed.

I walk to Avery's room to find him with his PJs on and tucked in. Okay then. I walk to him and kiss his forehead. I spot a grin on his face. "I love you baby boy." I say softly. Before I could exit his door, I hear a faint "I love you mommy." I smile and make my way to my room.

I enter to see a starfish spread across MY bed. Oh hell nah. I push her off my bed and she lands with a thump. I try to hold in my laughter. I grabbed a pillow and let it go. I look on the side and see her glaring at me.

"Why the fuck did you do that for?"

"You were in my bed spread out like no one lives here but you. Come on I'll give you some clothes and we can share the bed together. Say it with me to-get-herrr."

She gave me the finger and got up popping a billion bones. I walked to my drawer and grabbed her my shirt that's bigger on her. I took off my shirt and took off my pants and was just left in a sports bra and boxers. 

We both got in the bed cuddling to each other. My arm around her and hers around my waist. I wait until she goes to sleep and is breathing evenly. I close my eyes and fall into a deep sleep.

Dreaming about Demi Lovato.

Hey guysies the next chapter is going be more interesting than this one. I hope you likes my stuffie!