Confused

I walked to school after summer vacation. The wind feels cool. I went to school with a smile so I'll walk out of it with a smile too. Hehehe...I sure hope for the best. I went to my lockers and got some of my stuffs in. Then I walked in the classroom right after the school bell rang. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I entered the classroom. After that, I opened my eyes only to find by the window of our classroom , a gorgeous guy was there. After staring at him for 5 seconds, I found myself blushing. I immediately went to find a seat. I took a seat far from him so I would stop blushing. I listened to our teacher and a month flew past me.

"So fast...Time is just too fast" I said. It was Thursday afternoon when I said those words under a huge Narra tree with my friends, eating. One of my friends, Karen had some errands so she went back in class ahead of us. Tally and I was left sitting under the Narra tree. She laid her back to the tree while I hooked my arms to my knees. The view from our seat was great. We could see the soccer field, the cafeteria's left side, our classroom/s, and also...I could see Lawrence, the guy whom I thought is so gorgeous from the first day of school. Suddenly, Tally talked to me "Dhalia, do you think Lawrence is handsome?" she asked. I immediately replied "Yes!" then Tally stood up. She was wearing a smile that time. "I've decided!" she said out loud, just enough for the two of us to hear. "I'll confess to him later!" In shock, I was speechless. "Y-You are??" I asked. Tally nodded her head. She blushed a little, showing the sign of embarrassment. "D-Don't tell anybody about it." She said. And as a good friend, I agreed not to tell.

Later, Tally went off without even saying goodbye to us. Karen walked up to me and whispered "Where is Tally going?" I shaked my head, signaling that I don't know a thing about her actions. Karen pouted and we went ahead, back to our homes. Late at night, I was waiting for Tally's call or even just a text message. I was worried and curious about what happened. I even stayed up until 11, still, no call or text came. I felt empty somehow. I just felt sad. Maybe because Tally still haven't called me or maybe because I... don't have the same courage as hers.

The next day, we found Tally happy. We went on with our daily routines even though I was curious about what happened yesterday. Tally was happy. I think something good happened to her last night. Maybe, Lawrence and she are going to begin dating each other. I was so out of the question! Dismissal time came, I approached Tally as soon as we we're about to go out, back to our homes. I asked her about yesterday.

"What happened?"

"Did it go well?"

"Tell me what he said!"

Was all I could ask her. Too excited to know what happened to them. She faced down and I know that something bad happened to her yesterday. I just know because I'm her best friend. Tears began filling her eyes. Each drop are hot. I know since I took out my handkerchief and wiped them off. I hugged my best friend. I tried to comfort her by being by her side. She cried until she can no longer sob. We went home afterwards, no communication happened. It was all tears. I kept asking her questions and her replies were tears. Oh well, it's obvious that she was rejected. Somehow, I feel at ease.

Later, as I was doing my assignment, I got a text from her.

"Dhalia, sorry for crying on you a while ago. I hope it doesn't bother you so much. Here, I'll answer your questions... I went to him to confess after school and it was successful. I was successful in confessing to him but he rejected me. His reason was: He already had a fiancée. It really hurt me after hearing his explanation. I tried to act brave and strong but I can't hold it in. I'm not strong enough to handle such of an emotion! I'm sorry I bothered you, Dhalia. I hope you understand..." she said.

Fiancée. wow. A good one. He had a fiancée! Haha. Now that's another story. Before I realized it, I was also crying. "What?" I thought. I wiped my tears away. I went to bed. I tried to calm myself. I tried to stop my tears but my emotions are overpowering my body's commands. "It can't be helped." I said "after all...I also fell for him." Even though Lawrence wasn't the one who personally said that he had a fiancée, it made me feel upset and sad. "How about Tally?" I asked myself "Isn't she more hurt than you are? She's the one who gathered all her courage!" I thought.

After two quarters, it was third quarter. We were having new seating arrangement. Though it was scheduled on Monday because for now, we'll be having a flag ceremony. We lined up outside the classroom to go down to start the flag ceremony. I was next to Tally and next to me/ at my back was Lawrence. After lining up, our adviser announced "Alright class, this line up will be your seating arrangement on Monday." I gasped and thought "Then I'll be seating in the middle of Tally and Lawrence?!" the class began to murmur, some were so happy, and some were contended, like Tally.

Monday, when I went to class, Lawrence was already next to my chair. I sat next to him in a regular manner. We aren't that close anyway. After some weeks, it wasn't so bad. Being able to sit next to him wasn't so bad at all! Infact, I could  even talk to him and let him teach me whenever I have troubles with anything. He was kind as I suspected but I knew that I was over him. I gave up already for him.

Thursday, Lawrence asked me to come with him. He had to tell me something. I followed him and ended up making him confess to me. "I like you, Dhalia" he said. In shock, I was again, speechless. "But you have a fiancée, don't you?" I asked him. His faced got confused. I also got confused "What are you talking about?" he asked. Then it struck me. "What if him, having a fiancée was a lie?" I thought. "Would it make things better for us?"

In the end, I confessed to him also. I also told him about what Tally said, about him having a fiancée. But he said that he never said that and he never had one. He said "I rejected Tally because I already had someone I love and it's you, Dhalia!" Somehow, I don't know anymore to whom I should believe. Whether will it be my best friend or the one I love whom I thought I was over with? I just can't choose between them.

Loving someone is all about your faithfulness to each other's feelings. How could you love if you don't trust him/her? TRUST is also the important key to friendship. LIES is the enemy.