Tell Me You Love Me [bxb]

C24: Tell Me I Lost My Edge.

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"So he's still not talking to you?" L.J asked as she jogged along side me during track practice. I wasn't too focused on what I was doing because I was too busy looking over at Eric who was trying so desperately to keep his distance from his father.

According to Shawn who's been surprisingly helpful considering everything that happened Eric is still staying at their place and he's cut out on the drug abuse. I still didn't 100% trust his word until I checked things out myself but it was all I had so I had to go with it.

"Do you think I'm a bad person?" I say out of the blue remembering what Logan said to me as I slowed down my pace. "Do I not care about other people?"

"Everybody is a bad person," She shrugged stopping a few feet in front of me but she still jogged in place to keep active. "There's just different levels of bad, like there's people who forget to tell someone happy birthday bad and then there's you know murderous kidnappers bad,"

Letting out a light chuckle I sighed deeply. "You didn't answer the last part,"

She stopped jogging and gave me a slight frown. "It's not that you don't care for people it's just you have a hard time showing it and sometimes you come off as...." She paused as she looked around the field.

"Out with it!" I exclaimed.

"You come off as a complete asshole, but I don't think you mean to," She sucked her teeth. "Like for example telling someone they will never be anything in life just because they got one point higher than you on a test isn't what you're supposed to do,"

"Pffft," I wave her off. "That girl totally cheated it's no way in hell that Cindy Lou looking mother fucker--, aaah, I see what you mean," I cut myself off as I clamped my mouth shut.

"Incoming," L.J whispered making my head snap in the other direction and Shawn was heading directly towards us.

I wasn't nervous. Even after what I put him through he seemed not bothered by it and I saw that as good so why push it? Why ask him if he's truly okay when it can result in him breaking my face. I needed my face for face things.

"I'll help you," He said once he stopped in front of us a little out of breath. "I know Eric is Mr. Hickey and I'll help you two reunite,"

My jaw dropped. Maybe I really did need to ask him if he was okay, because this behavior was not normal. Why would he help me get with another dude if he liked me so much?

"How-um, how did you come to that crazy conclusion," I try to laugh it off like he was wrong and I had hoped L.J would have joined in but her jaw was also hitting the ground and I guess it was taking her more time to regather her thoughts.

Wiping the sweat from his brow he smiled cheekily. "From the constant texts from you asking if he's okay and the many not so secret sessions between Eric and Logan that all somehow end up being about you it was pretty easy to piece everything together,"

"Oh my god I'm so sorry," Was the first thing I blurted.

"It's fine," He stated. "I'm not holding a grudge against you and I'd still like to be friends if that's okay?"

"Of course," I nod not sure why he was being so nice to me when I deserved the opposite. Him acting like this really did put Logan's words into perspective. Shawn was such a sweet, kind, caring guy and I couldn't be any of those qualities even on my best day. Eric really didn't need my toxic ass in his life while he was going through things with his dad. I was afraid I'd only make it worse.

"So let's go," Shawn said grabbing both me and L.J's hand and dragging us toward the football field.

"No, I don't think this is a good idea," I try pulling away but L.J took it upon herself to also help push me forward.