my letter for my very special friend [DON'T READ]

chapter 1

first of all happy birthday, gyn! 💕✨ i dont usually write a whole essay for someone personally but i do it for monsta x well before yes nonetheless the person but now i became more lazier than ever also it's hard for me express myself in words so yeah i'm sorry if my letter is too confusing and some parts are irrelevant or non sense for you to understand what i'm actually pertaining for but since it's you of course i'll write some cheesy but emotional essay lol. that's a long introduction out there lemme start now.

so it's your very special day i know you dont actually anticipate it because we all know we're too old for some celebration and somehow we don't expect for such surprises or things cuz you know our squad is full of broke human beings not actually broke but let's say we're practical lol. but gifts or any presents won't ever express how much i'm wishing you to have a very good and happy birthday! you know what just like you i have many things in my mind to say to you but i just can't enumerate them all. so i'll list some things but i hope despite not being able to say them all i hope you will know how much i love you and how thankful and grateful i am that i met someone like you.

thank you for understanding me, for always being there whenever i need someone i can cry on, i always vent on you whenever i have problems but i guess i don't do that anymore not because i don't like to anymore or i already replaced you with someone else but because i realize how i should stand on my own sometimes yes vent is great it can reduce the burden you're feeling if you tell it to someone but not all the time i can tell you of course i need to help myself too and learn how to deal with it on my own sometimes. that's the reason why and about fangirling i never replaced you tho i would never replaced you with someone else i feel like you're the only one who truly understand me whenever i cry or laugh because of them because i know you feel and do the same way to your fav and i'm glad that there's at least one person who i can share my fangirling feels with and that's you. You said you're thankful for having me in your life, so am i. even tho sometimes i can't read your mood lmao but as the time goes by i learn how to interpret it i can't explain how but i think i know it now.

i know you rather keep your burdens by yourself or vent them with your mutuals that's okay you don't have to tell us everything if you don't feel to. we won't force you to tell us your problems so that we can understand you just don't forget that we're your friends, you still have your friends that you can hug and cry on anytime and we're always here for you.

i know there's such thing that you're experiencing now, no one actually knows how much you're going through every single day with that feeling. i can say i know how it feels and i think i don't truly understand how. i've said a lot of things to you already, if i would make it in short i want you to be happy and live your beautiful life to fullest. i know it's hard to deal with it, it's hard to make yourself happy especially if you can't but i guess it's part of our lives, what is the sense of being happy and contented if we won't experience these things, right? life will be boring if there's no such things as obstacle, challenges without those we wouldn't know what is the definition of life, why are we here actually. but i heard about it somewhere that life is a series of experiences and because of those experience they will mold you as what you are today and will make you stronger than ever. i'm basically saying this not to lecture you but to help you, even tho i, myself can't help myself sometimes with these i want to at least help others with these. you don't have to force yourself, but i want you to know that whoever you are today you will be moreee than you are tomorrow and i bet it's a good thing. maybe now you're stressed, feel down, frustrated don't give up, everything's going to be okay maybe today or tomorrow, don't stop believing. but i also want you to know that even if you're still not okay, that's okay you don't have to okay all the time, you're feeling down? that's okay, it doesn't mean you're boring. life is not all about being okay and happiness, i think it's all about how we handle them and live them. you don't have to believe all these words i just wanted to share them to you like you know i don't actually live all those words i just find them helpful sometimes but sometimes not because no matter what others will say, you're the only one who truly understand what you feel and you're the only one who can make yourself a better person if you choose to. in the end it's all by ourselves. so in short i just wrote those to share them to you. hihi

no matter what they say, you are you. you don't have to feel pressure just because others can't understand you. so what? at least someone can understand you, that is you and God.

sincerely i wishing you all the best and good things in this life. you deserve to be happy, you're one of most special people in my life. i also want to say that you're strong and a beautiful person despite all these things you're still fighting and holding on and i salute you for that. i hope one day you will wake up and all the burdens in your life will be gone because again you deserve to be happy.

those are the only things i can enumerate lol. but i hope you received my love uwu. thank you for being born. HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY, GYN! MORE BIRTHDAYS TO COME, GOD BLESS YOU, YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS, MUTUALS AND WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH 💕😘

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