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Hey all !!
Trying a one shot thing first then will post my full fleged story so go on . comment
Anddrop what not.. first words will always be taken well even if they are not so appreciative !! Off u go to read now !!
Caged -
An os by me !
Have you ever stood in front of the mirror looked at your self and thought " What happened to me ?' Have you ever thought that the past will haunt you each night but still you have to sleep. Have you reached a point where tears no longer come down from your eyes ? Has it occurred to you that u took too long to fight ?
People ask me why so much of attitude? People ask me why I get so easily uncomfortable? People ask me why I like to run free?
People ask me why am I not caged.
I'll tell you how?
I fell for him head over heels . I was in love. I loved him with all my soul, I loved him with all my might.
I would do anything for him. Jump, climb, kill, cut or even deceive.
I believed in him for being my soul. I believed in him for being my only one.
Yet when he asked me to prove I'd cut myself or write his name on myself.
I proved him I loved him. He told me I was stupid. He never cared.
I could not believe he just said said that to me. Was my love not enough for him ? No it wasn't. I had to surrender myself to him.
I had to tell him I loved him. And I did.
He kissed me. Making my world go around. My life depended on him He was the one for me. I knew it. I fell more deeply for him.
But things started to go awry. He started fighting, lying and deceiving me.
He cheated a number of times. But I didn't pay attention. I loved him. I blamed myself that I wasn't good for him.
I was caged in loving him. It was as if I could do nothing but love him. Just that.
But again when things were fine he abused me. Yet it didn't stop me from loving him.
He abused me I loved him. He insulted me I loved him. He ruined my b'day I loved him. He touched me. I loved him
Till the day his touch no longer suited me. Till his lies no longer made me love him. I wanted to be with him still .
Nothing was stopping me. I was crying , growing weak day by day. 4 years had passed.
I never thought love would be so tough. But he was all I wanted, how could I break free.
But my inner self had stopped me from loving him. Yet I was loving him.
I wanted to get out of the deceit , the lie , the cheat , the abuse. I didn't deserve it.
But this cage had become my life.
It was my comfort zone.
It made me lose myself but it was my land. I could just not leave and go.
Till one day when he abused me and I found myself getting angry. He threatened me but instead of crying or apologizing. I asked him to leave.
I stood up for me. I found myself again.
I no longer was caged. I got down opened the gates spread my wings n flew away. I flew till I got tired.
But I never returned to the cage. I was a coward back then. But today I'm not scared to scale New heights.
I'm not the weak person. I'm me. I care about myself so much that I would never let myself get hurt.
I'M NOT CAGED OR TAMED. I walk free. I carry my attitude.
Because I love myself. And no one above myself.
So never be caged. Break free. Love yourself enough to never feel afraid. Its your life. You own yourself. Keep yourself above anyone else.
Thank you ! Please drop comments and let me know how is this !!
