Love Dont Live Here Anymore

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I woke up out my sleep trying to escape a horrible dream I was having. I kept thinking to myself, no no no, Chris wouldn't do that. He wouldn't purposely have our child hurt so he could go on about his life.

"It was just a dream, it was just a dream"

I kept saying. I got up, showered and got myself ready to head over to my mother's house. I'd been at this hotel for over a week sinking in and out of depression. Although my son is gone he'll still watch over me everyday and I plan on making him proud. First things first I'll make these damn detectives do their job and find out more about this hit and run. I refuse to let them sweep this under the rug. My mind was all over the place, and I knew I'd have break downs throughout the day but no matter what I had to keep pushing.

I pulled up to my mom's house and she was outside watering her g

rass.

"Hey Jae, how you feeling?"

"I'm okay Mom........"

"It gets better w/ time Bby girl, just stay strong. I wanted to ask you what was going on w/ Chris. I could understand him not being able to leave work that night but he sure was acting strange the day of my grandson's home going."

My eyes widened and I swallowed hard.... She was paying attention ! I was at a lost for words. Do I tell her everything about Chris and Jazz and my dream or do I just brush it off ?

"He's a man Mom, they hide their emotions and they burry themselves w/ work so they don't fall into a deep depression."

"Don't make excuses for him Jae. He could have shown just a little emotion but he didn't, and that my dear raises a red flag."

"Alright Mom alright. Jazz and Chris are sleeping together. The day my son died I caught them fucking in our bed. OH and your daughter is pregnant.... BY CHRIS !"

"OH MY GOD JAE! I can't believe this ! I see why you are shutting yourself out from the world. This is a nightmare. God will punish them both."

"Yeah I nightmare that I can't wake from."

I tried to hold it together but I couldn't. I lost it right there in front of her. I was crying, screaming and cursing. She just held me.

"Oh Bby, you could have told me sooner. You didn't have to hold all that in."

I cried a little longer then I got myself together. I loved Chris but now when I think of him I just want to throw up in my mouth. These two assholes deserve one another, and they've turned me into a complete savage. From here on out my tears will strictly be from missing and mourning my son.

I went house searching for the remainder of the day. Found some beautiful homes. One in particular caught my eye; I get to see the inside tomorrow. I had neighbors and a few friends and family checking on me daily, thank God for the . Everyone's concern and love meant so much to me. I had a notification pop up on my phone...

A text from Mrs. Cooper; Chris's mother. It read :

              "Hey Jae. Just thinking about you, if you need anything I am just a phone call away."

BLOCKED !! I know she has nothing to do w/ any of this but honestly she's just a reminder of her sick ass son and a reminder of him is the last thing I needed. I heard a knock on the hotel room door...

I didn't order room service and I certainly didn't need any house keeping. So what the hell..

"I don't need any house keeping at the moment Susan."

"Jae this is Detective Bryan. Can we talk ?"

I jumped up as if I had seen a ghost. I went to the door, looked through the peephole and it was Detective Bryan for sure. I opened the door.

"Jae we need to talk. You need to answer every question I ask the best way you possibly can. We may have a problem. By the way, call me Bryan."

"What the fuck is going on Bryan ?"

"Listen love, just let me ask the questions. Does Jazz have any reason to hate you, be jealous or screw you over ? How much do you think she loved her nephew ?"

"Detective Bryan, where are you going w/ these questions ? What are you saying ? WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON ?"

I got up and started pacing the floor........

"Jae, Honey......... I've been looking for things out of place in town, in your neighborhood, hell all over the city. And your sister black Altima has the front plate missing. Why it seemed so strange to me ? I don't know but it did. I walked upon her car to do an observation and.......

That blanket you say your son would always carry was tucked under the passenger street. And it looks to have blood on it. Now Jae, I can't just go in for a search warrant on what I think I seen, and I can't just go arrest her because they'd say I'm assuming. I need you to tell me something true that would basically tell us it's her so we can arrest her.......... Jae are you listening ?"

"Bryan... The day my son was killed my twin or Chris didn't show up to the hospital because I caught them fucking in our home, in our bed.... Obviously my son and I were in the way of what they had going on....... She's pregnant by Chris."

I threw up all over the floor. My nerves were shot. I ran to the bathroom to get towels. Detective Bryan ran out the room and came back w/ a house keeper. He picked up the room phone and dialed 3 numbers...

"Hi this is Detective Bryan. I have Jae Williams in room 302.... Yes,.. Yes... Okay. Can you give her a different room ? I'll pay for it on my way out. Okay call back and let me know the room number. Thanks !"

He walked over to me and I started crying. He held me and let me cry. He tilted my head up, whipped my tears and began to walk away.

"Jae I'll check on you later. The clerk at the front desk will give you a call shortly. Pack your bag and get ready to head over to your fresh room. I have an arrest to go make.................."