Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

His Feelings Towards You

"Even though time faded away I'll still remember that day you broke my heart..." -💫

Jungkook pov

I hear the doorbell ring went ahead to open it but saw no one. So I looked side to side let looked down to my feet in disappointment, but saw a present box like the one Y/n gave me as a sorry present. I picked it up and ran to my room jumping on my bed to open the present. I saw a cookie shaped into a bunny and the music box having a post-it note on it. "Hope you'll like it, it's sweater weather like you wanted it to be. Love you like a best friend <3" I turned the crane hearing the lovely melody come out of it (that's what she said, had to do it.)

Yoongi pov

I woke up knowing we had a week off for spring break so I fell back asleep.
I got 10 minutes until someone was banging on my door. I ignored it but then hear it open. I ignored it again hoping the person could kill me in the sight, sadly but happily I saw Y/n.

"Oppa wake up~it's 17:00." I slightly blushed on my pillow. She rarely ever calls anyone of us 'Oppa'. "You called me Oppa? You really like me don't you." I said trying to fall asleep. "Yes, I do like you-that's besides the point! Who dyed your hair? It was black now brown? Did you get drunk last night with Namjoon?" Not caring that Y/n saw I was shirtless I sprung up and rushed to the bathroom seeing my hair light brown I remembered that I let his drunk ass dye my hair then letting me dye his brown to. "We both have brown hair..." I said with a big sigh. She laughed but got up and ran her hands through my hair, "I think it suits you, you look really cute." She said looking up at me smiling. My heart stared to pound and my face got red. "T-thanks..." She laughed at my reaction. Why am I getting so close? Overall I would just ruin everything. It would end up with someone getting hurt, or departing from me. I backed away a bit making her lose the smile. "Well why'd you come here?" I asked getting a shirt. "To hang out! C'mon I wanna see if I beat you in the piano." She said all cocky. I haven't played as well ever since I saw her and Tae kiss...I scoffed and nodded. I headed to my piano and stretched.

I started to play Beethoven's Symphony No. 5. She yawned, "Too easy. Try this hehe." She started to play Chopin's Etude Opus 25 No.11. I looked in shock from seeing how fast her fingers moved.

She finished and looked at me, "Beat that!" She said pretending to fight me. "I'm good let's go out~~" I said patting my stomach from hunger. She dragged my hand out to go somewhere to eat. "Hmm is frozen yogurt fine?" I asked. She was strangely really happy, she didn't wear jean and some baggy sweater. She still had her sneakers on but she dressed up nice.

Y/n smelt nice as always but her perfume change to something more innocent and sweet. "Why do you have a dress on? Are you going on a date with Taehyung or any of the others?" She nodded, "Who is it then?" She smiled, "You silly! That's why I'm with you right now." She said playfully slapping my arm. I blushed...I've never gone on a date especially if it were to be Y/n.

We got to the shop and got our frozen yogurt. I started to eat but as I swallowed my food Y/n started to laugh. She took out her phone and took a picture of me. "Who knew you were a messy eater." She said pointing the stains on my face, I was about to touch it but she stopped me. "Aish don't wipe it off with you sleeve let me get a napkin." She grabs one and lifts my chin up so she could wipe away the food. Once she was done she leaned in closer making our faces centimeters apart. "You're face is so clear and soft..." She rubs my cheek with her thumb. I turned away and thanked her. My heart was pounding and my breath was heavy. She made me feel shy around but so happy. I shouldn't get close to her, no not again, after what happened I tried to stay away from them as much as possible. She went back to her seat and just ate. She seemed like she wanted to say something but the words couldn't come out. "Is there something you want to say?" I asked her. "It's nothing...but do you-do you even like me anymore? You seem to be to away from the others. Did do something?" She said playing with the cup. "You didn't do anything. I'm just not sure whether or not I should have feelings for you." She seemed a bit hurt but I felt as if she was okay.

Y/n pov

I didn't know how to feel. He's so kind and beautiful with his personality I feel as if I fell in love. Do I really love him? "Oh I get it! Yeah, no I get what you're saying." I didn't really understand but I forced myself to put on a smile. "Hey let's just go to Jin's bar he would be there with Taehyung or Jungkook." He held my hand and crossed the street. As we entered he was right we say Jin and Jungkook. "Oh hey!" I waved to them, but it seemed as if they were to busy drinking. I walked over but Jungkook was intoxicated, "Yah~little note don't-" He was about to say something but rushed to the bathroom covering his mouth. "Yoongi please don't drink a lot..." Jin told him he nodded taking only two shots. He later on went to the bathroom. Jin sat there quietly doing nothing but play with his drink. "I'm sorry to say this Y/n but...Jimin doesn't really like himself...ever since his mom died memories surfaced around how he does these things and how he's not good enough...have you notice he's getting skinny? He's really insecure about everything he does. " I looked back at what he does and says. I stayed quiet and sighed. "Yeah I have..." I said. It stayed quiet and Jungkook already went out the bathroom from puking, but Yoongi never went out. I hated myself for this but I was about to walk into the men's bathroom but the door swung open revealing Yoongi with watery eyes and tears streaming down his face.

"Yoongi are you okay?" I asked he just kept walking ignoring me. When we got outside he was still ignoring me. "Why are you ignoring me?" I placed a hand on his sleeve. "Let go!" I stopped and stood there shocked. "Why are you acting like this..?" I asked, "Y/n just leave me alone...I don't want to you to get close to me!" He said in a whimpering voice. "Everyone who I've loved has either hurt me or I just make there lives miserable!" I tried placing my hand on him but he swatted it away again, "I rather not close to me anymore, I'm just making you life a mess like last time..." I knew what he was referring to...he walked home leaving me alone on the street. I looked out to the street. Cars passed me I guess he still remembers. I felt uneasy with feeling as if someone has watched me. I ignored it and walked back to me apartment. As I got to my room I put my ear to the wall to hear Yoongi nothing but breathing. I feel as if everyone is going to depart from me again...