2 a.m.

2 a.m. Part 1

I was talking to my mom about the plan for the weekend while I brushed my long, thick blonde hair. "What time is Tina's birthday party at?"

"Well Tina's wants to have a party at the All Out Zone." she told me softly.

"Do you want to do it in the afternoon so we can have lunch too?"

"No, we're going to have it 3-5 "

I walked outside so I could go call my friend Sienna. Sienna and I met at my cousins birthday party. She is almost 13 but I don't remember when her birthday is. She is so beautiful; the freckles on her face looks like she was kissed so many times by angels, let's not even bring up her long black hair. There was in her a monkey who was curious and and factory of weirdness. Curiously she asked me what I was doing.

"Nothing, what about you?" I asked

"Nothing." She said boingly

"What are you going to do the weekend?" I wondered

"I don't know yet. Why?" She answered quietly

"Oh, because I was wondering if you wanted to go to the mall to hangout while my sisters have there party. Do you?" I asked nicely

"Umm maybe, I have to ask my parents." She answered cautioning. I thought to myself I wonder if she can come over. I should ask my mom! I into the kitchen slamming the door. "Mom, can Sienna come over after the party?"

"I will think about it. Do you have your homework done?"

"Yes mom I did it." I really wasn't done with all my homework but it wasn't due on Monday. I hate homework. I honestly think it's pointless, and I never have found it to do anything for me. Honestly I copy most of the time. Maybe that explains why I mostly fail my tests. Lately I have actually been doing my homework and I have been studying.

Anyway, I don't stay up all night like other people I know. I wouldn't do that because then I wouldn't be able to stay awake during the day. If I do have a bunch of homework or studying to do I usually go to bed around 10 and then I would wake up at 5:30 so I would get some sleep.

I had a good morning, I saw Sienna and I think I am going to stay over this weekend. I have a lot to plan for us to do this weekend.I really hope this weekend is really fun.

I want to stay up really late. I want to bake a bunch of things. Sit down and have a movie marathon.

After all of these I'm going to have to go back to the castle of boringness. It is literally so boring all I do is sit there and text. I could go on long walks but then I will be lonely. I could do my nails but usually it takes to long to do my nails. I could do my make up for fun but my mom always gets mad at me. I could go swing, but I always think about bad memories and then I have suicidal thoughts. I could go work at my neighbors, I would get paid for that. Other than that I am in a castle of boringness. Like I don't know what to do with my life.

I like school because I can kind of get away from my siblings and I can get away from all of my personal problems for the most part. My favorite subject in school is Math. It's not my highest grade but I try a lot more on it. My least favorite subject is Science but it's one of my highest grades.

"Just remember you guys have a big project due tomorrow." Said Mrs. Larry

"Oh, shoot I haven't done a lot!" I said softly so my friend Lucy

"Dude you're dumb if you haven't worked on it." Lucy said

"I know, I'm just going to fail." I said scaredly

"I'm going to fail too though." Lucy said

"You just got done telling me that I'm dumb for not working on it."I said rudely

"I know, I've done it but it's bad."

"At least you have something written. I don't have anything basically"

"I know I'm just really bad at writing"

"I'm really bad at writing so I'm going to be awake all night, cause I just can't get my ideas out."

"Whatever, the bell is going to ring soon, talk to you later."

"Ok later."

When the bell rings in go and find a place to sit by myself. I isolate myself cause I usually get hurt or we get in a fight over the dumbest things. After we fight we never talk again unless if its for school. Sienna is like my only friend. We don't go to the same school though so I don't talk to people a lot unless I need help on school work or something school related.

After school that day I worked on my project. I tried my best to make it look like I put time into writing this essay on the Cold War and draw a good drawing. The latest I want to be up is 2 a.m at the most. I tried my best to go to bed at that time. I was up until 4:30 in the morning. It was a really big problem for me. It was a really boring subject to write and draw about. I have never stayed up until the time I did doing school work. After I was done with that I just layed in bed, I tried as hard as I could but I couldn't fall asleep.

I had to go to school later on that day. I was extremely tired. It was all my fault that I didn't work on it during all the time I had to do it. I do this every time I get a big project like this. I literally do it the last minute. I'm just always lazy to do it. When I wait to work on it, it gives me so much stress. I know I shouldn't do it but I do. It kind of a habit. For my next project I am going to work on in the first day I get it.

During English and Science I fell asleep. The funny part is that my teachers didn't even notice that I was asleep. That night I had to ask Lucy what we did in those classes. She just said "we toke notes." Then I asked if she could send them to me so I could copy. For the Science I didn't even understand it. So the next day when I was on the bus I asked Lucy to explain them to me. After she did I understood them. Science is the most boring subject ever, that's why I almost always fall asleep.

That night I slept a lot, thank god. I don't like going to bed earlier but it's good for me. On the weekends I go to bed late and then I wake up at like 10 or 11.When I go to bed late I usually stay up texting with friends or I watch youtube videos. I like sleeping but then I don't like sleeping at the same time.

Yesterday I got assigned a really big project. I started right away on it, I started planning it. One step at a time. It was for science. I had to write a 5 page essay for band. That night I started on my outline.