One Step closer - h.s. ON HOLD

➳ One ➳

I deleted the last two books cuz it was hard to catch up to :/ so yeah. But I made a new book. I already made one chapter XD it's pretty long I may say. Hope you happily enjoy.

Oh and always remember

I love you 😛💕💕

- kiana 💕💕💕💕🍃

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Ella's P.O.V

Chapter 1

Today, was the day I go to my new school. Everything has changed after the past couple months. I have no parents. Only my brother Josh. He's always been there for me. Big brothers are always a gift. 100%. Thinking of him brings the biggest smile on my face. He's my protector.

My hero.

Being an orphan changed the way I think about myself.

Hurt.

Terrified.

Sad.

Self conscious.

Yes, I am an orphan. My parents died. Well my mom did. She had cancer, and it got bad. So bad that she didn't have enough power. She couldn't fight anymore.

I felt a tear slide down my cheek, to my chin, down to the fabric of my high waisted shorts.

I tried to stop thinking about my beloved mother and quickly moved my thoughts to my dad. The old fucker left me and Josh after my mom passed away.

He would get drunk every night and hit me, so hard that I couldn't speak. I felt so powerless whenever he took over in that intention.

I felt so small around him no matter what.

It was so bad, I'd flinch if he wanted to pat me on the back and such.

I was scared of him.

Terrified.

Unsafe.

One day he just left. But he did leave a note.

Dear Ella & Josh,

I will be right back. Just went to the store.

Love, daddy <3

Hah. That was a lie. I was kind of glad he left for a short time. Until it got late at night. I got really worried.

I'd be calling him but he wouldn't want to pick up. But the next day is when I realized he was giving up on me, On Josh, on ....

Us.

I cried for as long as I could remember. Yeah, Josh was there, but he took his feelings out but going to the gym; which was my chance.

My chance to take my feelings out passionately.

By singing.

No one has ever heard me sing before. I honestly only sing when I'm far from people, or when I'm completely alone. It's the one and only way I can express my feelings calmly.

"Are you excited to go to your new high school?" Mrs. Wood asked me. Interrupting my thoughts.

"Um... Yeah." I said while still looking out the window.

"Sounds like you'll have some fun!" She smiled brightly, eyes still focused on the road in front of her.

Mrs. Wood was my 'care taker' I guess you could say. She took care of a lot of children at the orphanage. She was so kind. I couldn't imagine anyone else more nice.

She was in her mid 50's and was the only person who impacted me on a lot of things in life.

She was wise alright.

"We're here!" Each word sounding more terrifying than the next.

"After school I'll pick you up. I'll have all your belongings in the car by then." She informed me.

"Yay?" I was not excited at all. I was scared at what the people may think.

She looked back at me. As I was in the seat behind the driver's.

"It's okay sweetheart. I know it's hard to change so quickly. But remember you are here for the learning. You don't have to be socializing right now. Only when you feel comfortable. Okay?" She said with a sweet reassuring smile.

"Okay." I said as I grabbed my duffle bag and backpack while exiting the car.

A group of boys that were gathered in a corner were staring at me. My eyes made long eye contact with the curly haired green eyed boy.

He was beautiful.

But I know that I have other things in my mind besides 'BOYS'.

Whale damn. Even the slutty looking girls can't stop staring at me.

"Ew.. She looks like she might have aids..." One blonde said.

I close my eyes tightly..

Oh my gosh. Can my day get any worse ?!

**** end of chapter 1

Hope you liked !!!! Please don't mine the cover. I'm not really prepare I promise I'll fix the book title when I can.