Every time I see you kiss her I lose my train of thought because every emotion I've ever felt swims around in my mind. Pumping and colliding in my veins as these jumpled emotions travel their voyage to the place where they matter most. My heart. Every time I see you hug her my whole body becomes an iceberg as the sight sends icy snakes flowing threw my body with jealousy. When she hugs you I want to blow the steam out my nose like a bull. All I can see is her outline in unmistakable red silk which I'm ready to charge and send her flying and frailing through the air all because I know where I see the love in your eyes that gleam her way but I know if I look into her eyes all I would she is a big hole full of no emotions because she doesn't love you but chooses to mourn over her past boyfriends and text and flirt with all these other guys . Luring them into her tangled web of poor hypnitize boys who fall for her charm. But mostly the anger is on myself for not seeing what right in front of me. While I thought I liked the other boys deep down hidden in the darkest crevices of my mind I know who I really love. I'm angry at myself for disguising it until its too late, until all I can do is sit and watch you unaware and difenceless against what is unfolding in front of you. I'm angry at myself because I've blinded myself until I see you with another. Well now I know I've alwaysed have and I'll never forget ... I love you.
