Dear Ex best friend,
I miss you. We haven't been talking lately. Well, that is until today. I felt bad how we left things and I wanted to make sure you knew sincerely why the fight had happened.
I confronted you in the nicest way possible with a message telling you what went down. I made sure you knew that I wasn't trying to be friends again though. You didn't respond well to it. You told me you had known all along. You also said that you didn't plan to ever be friends again. Although I saw it coming, it hurt.
It hurt that the person I once told everything to now sat in front of me as a stranger. I was always told that friendships don't last outside of high school, but I didn't want to believe it.
I planned for you to be my bridesmaid, the god mother of my children, and most of all, my best friend, forever. I could picture you and I sitting on a portch as old ladies laughing about childish memories we had experienced together. But these visions came to a jolting stop as soon as reality kicked in.
You weren't who I thought you were. I changed as a person too. You got a boyfriend and started to turn into his best friend instead of mine. It hurts and yet I still can't bring myself to delete pictures of us or throw away items from you.
Although you probably don't think about me anymore, I wanted to say thank you. I am mad, not going to lie, but I still loved and love you. I hope your life gets better from what it is now, and I hope he treats you the way I did. Thanks for being my friend when nobody else would.
Thanks for the memories such as going to your house to watch scary movies, watching meme compilations, letting me do your makeup even when you hated it, and that day your dad almost burnt the house down cooking, hours before the homecoming dance.
I know deep down I wish that you'll just run back to me and be my best friend again, but I know that won't happen. I know it's better for us to go out separate ways, but it hurts.
I want to thank you for keeping my secrets, giving me advice that I'll treasure forever, and making me feel happy and myself no matter what. Long story short, thank you for teaching me a lesson about friendship.
We might not be friends, and you most likely won't ever see this, but I love you. I want you to know that through all of my anger, I could never hate you or hold a grudge against you.
Sincerely,
The girl you once knew.
