euphoria | bts

one

10:27 am

i opened my eyes into the dark room, the thick curtains leaving a minor amount of light

i did not remember what has been happening for a while, 

everything has been so compacted together

straightening straightening my posture, I groaned at the sharp pain running along my back

squinting, I tried to adjust my eyes from the amount of lighting coming in the room

the room was plain, white and smelt like disinfectant 

slinging the pillow over my shoulder, i walked closer to the neighboring mattress

I sighed when I saw the big frame, laying calmly on the bed

i opened the curtains , eyes still fixed to whom i stared at

the wait was long

the constant beeping from my side of the room made it seem long

but really it was only for a few minutes

i was too nervous for today

though i am all the time

but this feeling was different from most

it was not the feeling of being scared of the outside world

oh no it wasn't

it was not the feeling of bringing up something 

only to look back at the people become quiet and stare at you 

oh no it wasnt either

it was the feeling of something bad

it felt like I was trying to figure what it was about, but something stopped m

and I decided to accept the fact of defeat

I heard the bed slightly creak followed by the fixture of the blanket

I looked down and tensed a bit, seeing your eyes met mine

you studied me before poof

a spray of feathers covers my vision