My state of mind

Past and present

Hi, I'm Alice White, an almost normal girl who just finished High school. ~Yep, I said almost normal 'cause~ I have a doble personality. ~Two opposite views on the same person, darling~ this so called "sickness" begun when I was about eight.

At that time, all I had were troubles with my parents ~not my fault they were gonna get divorced... nop, not at all~ causing also troubles at school with my teachers ~adding more oil to the fire~ and with my 9 th birthday getting closer my one and only support, my grandma, died ~perfect timing don't you think?~ Shut up! *cof cof* caused me a breakdown and I had to be hospitalized for... 1 or 2 months? ~yeah, maybe a little more... can't remember~ made my mind a mess with contradictions trying to get out plus depression equal suicidal behavior ~kinda heavy stuff going around, nobody noticed it 'till it was late. The first attempt to die with nine years old... made me a way to get out~ I was going to say that!.. whatever I couldn't handle it anymore so, she was born: my shield against my surroundings.

I'm a very shy person and she is my opposite, sarcastic, says what she thinks and doesn't care for others... when we-I came out of the hospital was taken to see a psychologist ~almost took you like a lunatic talking to yourself on the first day~ I couldn't help it, I was talking to you out loud and didn't notice I wasn't alon- that person made me a test and told to my "worried" ~but now divorced~ parents my situation.

They tried to get rid of her with drugs ~that didn't work~ making me consume more than needed and made fall again in hospital for an overdose. Their position in society was more important than me ~as the stuck-up head secretary and a successful business man they are~ so they sent me to a girls only boarding middle school to, help me? I don't know.

Those 3 years were hard, I couldn't decide if I should let her out ~and do my job~ but bullying hurried my decision and she protected me from the gi~b*tches~ around me at school causing trouble ~didn't know one of them was the director's granddaughter~ with me almost expelled.

I finished middle school with 0 friends and was sent even further away: to Japan... I was asked once if I had interest in another country and answered honestly, because their culture and history are interesting, also I could manage the idiom a bit ~you're joking, right? it was 'cause of the anime don't lie~ so what? it's interesting and it isn't for children only. Back to topic, I had trouble adapting to school life plus no speaking English properly and misunderstandings made it hard yet fun, with another zero friend record but weird a twelve boyfriend record ~Haha Sorry couldn't help it~.

Now I'm back and I'm going to start college next week.