The Trouble With Love (SHOEY Fanfic) DISCONTINUED

Slow Down (Chapter 19)

[The Next Day]

I knocked on his door, phone in my back pocket, unlike last time. I looked around absent-mindedly. What is taking him so long? He said he'd be home...

I had spent all morning picking out something to wear, and finally decided on my blue and white striped shirt with black skinny jeans. It was what I wore the day he first kissed me.

I was starting to get nervous. Maybe I could try to flirt with him a bit...? Only if he's home.

I pulled out my phone and looked into the front camera. I quickly dragged my fingers through my messy hair just as Shane opened the door.

He flung his hands to his chest and practically swooned.

"Are you really doing your hair for me?!" I quickly turned off my phone and shoved it into my back pocket, blushing profusely.

"I, uh... I just had to fix my hair... I had forgotten to this morning..." I lied.

He laughed and welcomed me inside. I was pretty much fangirling, but I was emotionless as a stone on the outside. He was as gorgeous as ever.

"So... Anything we really need to discuss?" He looked at me and I took a breath.

Sibling conversation, sibling conversation...

Oh my god, his eyes...

Joey! Stop it! You can't keep screwing things up with him!

"Well, I guess I should kinda update you on stuff... Since I'm the... 'go betweener', ya know?"

He chuckled and nodded, pulling up two stools for both of us. I sat with the back of the chair in front, straddling the chair.

"Well... Sawyer isn't exactly too happy that we're trying to fix things... He still doesn't trust you..." I looked at him and sighed. I wanted this to work so bad...

I mean, if Sawyer and Izzy finally accept that Shane is different now, I could start going out with Shane, get engaged to him, get married, have hot sex every night, adopt a few kids, live in a great house and make a decent amount of money in Youtube and movie productions... My life would be perfect.

"I don't blame them... I still think I'm partly crazy still... I just... Don't know what happened to me. Something in my mind just takes over... I couldn't control it... I'm scared that I might snap again on Lisa or you..."

I snapped back to reality and listened carefully. So he is still with Lisa...

"I believe in you..." I said in a still, small voice, feeling his pain. I can't control my panic attacks. Maybe what he does is somehow similar to a panic attack?

He looked at me softly and smiled.

"I'm glad, Joey... You're such a good friend." I flinched slightly, and Shane noticed, because I saw his eyebrow lift.

That's it. It's now or never.

"Shane, why did you have sex with me?"

He froze, staring at me, contemplating how to respond to my sudden outburst.

"I-I..."

"If you aren't gay, why did you kiss me? Do you even like me, or were you just playing with my heart?"

He stared at the floor in tears. I seem to make him cry a lot... Is that a good or a bad thing?

"I-I don't know why, Joey... Y-you just.. L-looked s-so hot... I couldn't help I-it. A-and I am gay... PLEASE don't tell a-anyone." He looked at me with pleading eyes.