I will continuously disappoint myself in fear of disappointing anyone else. I'll let myself drown and take the bullshit that gets thrown at me even when I know I don't deserve it—when I know I deserve better. I'll apologize, I'll take everything upon myself if that means you won't be upset or hurt. I'll say whatever you want to hear, even if it's not the truth—whatever helps you sleep at night. Please, use me as a doormat, stomp all over me, don't forget to wipe your shoes clean. I will do whatever it takes to make sure you're happy. To make sure you're never disappointed in me. And that is not fair because I do know I don't deserve that—I know it. But letting go is so hard. I know it'll hurt you but sometimes you have to think of yourself. You have to be a little selfish. Being ripped apart and dragged down isn't worth it; let them feel miserable alone. Feeling this much pain over someone means that it is time to let them go. Just let them go.
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