The Shape Shifter

Chapter 16

I know, I know. Silvermoon where have you been!?!?!? I'm sorry for not updating sooner, but life. That's it. Anyway, it's been a while so I had to go back and reread my own book, I got it now though. Quick warning, my writing style might have changed a bit since I did start this like three years ago? If you don't like it, again, I'm sorry.

PS. If your still reading after I disappeared for so long... I bless your soul!

Skyler's p.o.v.

I had been staying with Ryder, in his room that he now called ours. I didn't deserve it. We haven't gone to see how Tony is doing because I didn't want to see him, I didn't deserve to see him and Ryder stated that he wouldn't go see him unless we went together.

I felt terrible and not a word has been passed between my animal and I, making me feel worse.

Everyone in this pack had earned their place here, they were raised around each other, they trusted each other, they protected and assisted each other, and me? I haven't done anything. I wasn't allowed in the pack and the second I get a chance... I attack the future Beta.

Who does something so unforgivable? Only a true monster, Tony was only playing with me, with us, and my stupid animal took it too far.

"Skylar?" My arms tightened around my knees and I held my breath. "Skylar... Please talk to me. I don't understand."

"Go away." I whispered, I needed to punish myself because I didn't want to hurt anyone else. I needed discipline, "please."

Light flooded under the blanket I hid under and a body crawled under with me, unsuccessfully hugging me. "Why are you upset? So your wild side hurt someone a little, it happens all the time in training right?" Rhett said and squeezed my arm, "It happened all the time in Mothers pack since she said that pain helped us learn faster. I don't like it when you're sad... "

"Things are different here, hurting your own pack members is not how they train." I explained. People sparred here but they didn't send people to the pack doctor with gaping wounds in their chests.

"Why don't you go apologize then?"

"I can't do that."

"Why not?"

"because I can't control Lenox" I could apologize all I wanted but this has happened before, the point of 'sorry' was that you learned something and wouldn't repeat the same mistake again. I couldn't say that with confidence at all.

"Have you talked with Lenox?" He asked.

"Of course I have! I've been telling him since the first time he attacked something." I was frustrated. This was the whole reason I didn't want to apologize to Tony, since Lenox has promised before to not attack but he still does it. It's not fair that I respect him but he doesn't respect me.

"You blame him?"

"Yeah. He did it."

"But why? Did you ask him why he did it?" Rhett was playing with my shoe laces now and I watched as his small fingers tied and untied knots as he shuffled closer.

"Uh.... No." I had always just blamed him and told him to stop. I yelled at him and we fought but nothing was ever explained.

"Can I talk to him?"

"Lenox?"

"Yeah, he's part of you and I wanna know all of you big brother!" He stopped playing with my laces to smile up at me and I sighed.

Lenox?

Lenox, Rhett wants to talk to you.

He wasn't answering...