Change; An Edwin Honoret Fanfiction

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"I'm surprised you haven't had a mental breakdown yet" Venus remarks "on the flight from Australia you were crying like a little baby and-"

"Okay! shit" I raise my voice.

"The noise complaint was funny though, admit it" Riley adds as we walk into the airport.

"Whoop, love panic attacks!! I can't even-" I'm interrupted by a security guard grabbing my arm.

"Hey what the-"

Our manager Cole walks over and taps the muscular, lighter toned males shoulder causing his attention to evert from me.

I've never been more thankful.

"What's the problem" Cole stops and looks at his tag "Hank?"

"Are y'all prettymuch" I shake my head and point to the boys who suddenly look like they're about to shit bricks, I notice Austin stick up the finger.

"So y'all are the girl band they won't such up about?"

"Yeah that'd be-"

"They?" Cole interrupts

"Fans, it's a safety hazard"

I feel myself begin to shake. The anxiety is coming and going in waves like it has been all day and I'm scared this might be a sign of it escalating but at the same time, I highly doubt it.

When I was 12 I used to struggle to sleep and I wouldn't be able to eat, or just function in general, when I knew something was happen, whether the bullying was bad or I had an essay. I would freak the fuck out. For some strange reason I love hospitals, so when she asked me to see one I agreed not expecting too much. Apparently I have "situational anxiety", meaning in situations where I'm uncomfortable, unfamiliar or just stressed I get all the symptoms for severe anxiety disorder.

I guess I just don't like aeroplanes.

Actually, it's not that. I'm okay with flying, just not the idea that I'm not in control of my life. It could end at any moment and I have no control over that.. guess I'm just a control freak.

I catch Coles eye and as Hanna's cousin he knows about my anxiety, but as soon as he gives me a sympathetic expression I shake my head, reminding him he's in the middle of an important conversation with a very... intimidating guy.

After about a minute of feeling myself go in a downward spiral, a pair of warm arms wrap around my waist, and a familiar voice whispers "calm down baby girl, calm down"

"Edwin, what are you doing? I don't think-"

"Hey, we all have a past, I used to get them too. I promised you could trust me so yes obviously I'm going to make sure you're okay"

He continues to hug me from behind with his head resting on my shoulder for the rest of the talk between his manager, Cole and the security guard. He would occasionally whisper 'you're okay' over and over which actually lessened the anxiety a great deal. Why? I couldn't tell you, but I'm thankful.

"Okay guys" Cole walks over to us and begins to explain the situation, we have to go through security and around the back way in order to avoid any potential problems.