Notice- vmin oneshot

Notice

Taehyung's POV

We sat in the bench in the park in the middle of the night and just watching how beautiful the stars are. I look at you in awe, just admiring how your eyes lit up when you see the stars twinkle. We've been friends since we were just little kids. I grew up with you as my anchor. You're always been there for me ever since; bad or good days. I suddenly felt anger built up inside of me. I'm angry at myself. I hate myself of how cruel and stupid I am for not noticing it earlier. I hate myself for not telling you how lucky I am to have you. But I know that I will hate myself more if I told you that because you already have him. The love of your life that you're always talking about. Maybe if I told you earlier, I have you in my arms, not in his. My eyes trailed off of your face and went down to my hands. I wish I have your's that is clasped tightly in mine's. I envy him, even if I still don't know him, I know he's beautiful and so lucky to have you fallen in him.

"Hey, Taehyung! Are you okay?"

You took my chin up to look at you straight in the eye. Your eyes are filled with sadness as you look into mine.

"Y-yeah. I'm f-fine." I force myself to smile to assure you but I failed miserably. At the same time, cursing myself from stuttering in front of you.

"Don't lie to me, Taehyung. I know you're not." You wipe the tear that is falling down my cheeks using your thumb. I didn't even notice that I'm crying.

I suddenly ask myself, why am I so bad at noticing things?

I laugh nervously and took your thumb off of my chin and look away.

"Really, it's nothing, Jiminie." I lied. And you seemed to notice it but you just let it pass. "Fine." I sighed in relief.

"It's already late, we should go now." I said already standing up. Honestly, I still wanna be with you and if it's even possible, I wanna sit next to you here for the rest of my life but I just cannot help it. I know if I stay longer, I maybe can't control myself from confessing.

"No, please stay." You said while wrapping your hand around to mine's.

Fuck that words that is always keeping me stay.

Fuck that eyes that I can't resist.

Fuck that lips-- wait, what the fuck? Taehyung, hold yourself. He love someone else.

I let out a sigh and sit back, "Alright." You smile at me and muttered a thanks before looking back up at the stars.

I then can sense the wrong in the atmosphere. As a matter of fact, I already sense it when you called me out. When you told me that you just missed me because we barely see each other because of our hectic schedules as an excuse for calling me to go out in the middle of the night. I know part of it was a lie. I know something is bothering you.

"Hey, is something's bothering you?" I ask you while tapping your shoulders to get your attention.

"Hmm? How can you say so?"

"Oh come on, Jiminie. We've been best friends since we were just little kids. I know something is bothering you. Just tell me okay? I'll listen."

You nodded and smile. "I... I wanna confess to him, Taehyungie."

My smile instantly drop. Oh well, what do you expect, Taehyung? You know that it'll happen. The voice in my head say.

You'll be finally be together with the love of your life. I already know this will happen. But even though I already saw it coming, It still hurst. A lot.