PERFECT ➣ JINCENTRIC✓

𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔

Min Yoongi
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I, Min Yoongi is in love with Kim Seokjin. As strange as it is to say its true, I've loved him for as long as I could remember.

I think it started when we were about 12 years old. He was my neighbor and our parents had him his brother, and I play together

One day him and I snuck out at night to take a walk on the nearby beach. It was just the look on his face, the small​ smile that appeared on his pink lips. The way his black hair was flowing in the wind and how the moon was reflecting in his big brown eyes was almost perfect. That's when I realized I am in love him.

I didn't know what it was like to love a guy the way I did at the time. I pushed all my feelings aside and told myself that it was just because Jin and I were friends and nothing more. But when I turned 16 it started to eat at me, my curiosity grew stronger, and my thoughts ran wild about Jin.

Just when I couldn't take it anymore, I started dating one of our mutual friends, Park Jimin. Jimin is really sweet and bubbly. We were friends for a long time until I asked him out just to see if I really was gay. We dated for about 6 months, I kept it a secret from everyone knew, mainly Jin.

I was afraid of what everyone would have thought of me, how they would react if they would accept me, but most of all I was afraid of what he thought.

It would be hard to hear that someone you love didn't accept you, or just pushed you away because of who you loved or what you want to do. Many of my friends and family members didn't accept the fact I was gay, so they blocked me out of their lives.

I thought Jin's family would hate me and wouldn't want me around him if they knew. So I hid it from him, I also lied to him and told him Jimin was nothing more but a friend. He believed me, but I didn't want to lie any more or hide how I feel.

Told him I was gay and he accepted me. He also told me he was bisexual himself. All the hope I've ever lost of Jin and I being together, came back. I was excited, scared, but ready to feel him how I actually felt. That same day I broke things off with Jimin, he was okay with it and told me to go for it.

After weeks of planning on how would I tell Jin, I practiced what I wanted to say and how I wanted to say it. It's cheesy I know, but I'm not the best with words and needed everything to be perfect. I felt as if I was ready and prepared for anything.

That same day Jin told me about his feelings for Namjoon and that he was going to confess. I was prepared for everything, everything except for that.

I supported Jin's decision and sat back and watched him be happy with someone else. I was convinced Jin and I just wasn't meant to be together.

Life is unfair like that sometimes. I wanted the best for him and of course, I had my jealous moments, it's kinda hard not to when your crush is dating your friend. Jin and Namjoon stayed together for three months, the day they broke up I was ecstatic and promised to tell Jin how I felt.

But here am I, it has been four months in and still I do not have a plan. Whatever I do, I will not Jin slip away from me this time.

I will never give up.

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