The Fallen

*Chapter Twelve*

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It was him. The same guy I had seen in the alleyway, the same guy I had seen outside of the house. The guy that everybody called Big Blue.

Noah.

Noah, that's what his mom had called him. I look back at him. He's still kneeling next to me. His eyes still burning into mine.

"I'm not going to hurt you." He repeats again, maybe mistaking my shocked silence for fear. I nod at him, still unable to form words.

I push myself up onto my elbows. I was starting to feel awkward with him just kneeling next to me while I lay on the floor. The pain that lances through my arms is almost unbearable but it's less pain than I was in before. Noah reaches out to me, and I stop him before he is able to touch me. Raising my hand to stop him, I almost topple over, but I manage to balance myself. I glance at him, knowing I've made a fool of myself. One side of his mouth is upturned, his eyes amused. I can feel the heat begin to rise in my cheeks. Suddenly he lurches forward, eyebrows furrowed.

"Your fever isn't rising again is it?" He touches the side of my cheek. I gasp, eyes widening. His touch, it elicits something inside of me. Something forgotten, something missing, something I want more of. Noah steps back retracting his hand as if something bite him.

"It's funny how I've been drawn to you since I first saw you. How ever since I first saw you, I'm drawn to the places you are." His words make my heart flutter, he's been drawn to me? All of a sudden his eyebrows furrow and his eyes grow cold once more.

"It's too bad you're a whore." A stare at him blankly. The word rings familiar, but I can't seem to remember what it means. Though by the way he spits it out, I can imagine its not something positive.

"Oh! Don't act all innocent and like you don't know. You were in Ritta's House. That place is only for the lowest of the low, the filthiest of the filthy. For whores." He spits out his eyes burning with anger. I still don't understand.

"For Gods sake! Are you playing stupid? Are you trying to make my angry? Because I'll tell you what, it's working!" He stands up and begins to pace the floor. "A whore! You know a women who uses her body to pleasure others! A women who gets paid to do filthy things... A women who has no morals! A women who is the lowest of the low... Who's the devils spawn!" He spits.

I am furious. I push myself up to my feet. Ignoring the pain that surges through me. Grinding my teeth I find the strength to stand firmly on my feet. Noah's eyes are filled with concern. It doesn't matter my patience has reached its max. I take a step forward. He takes one back.

"If you think for one moment that I am what you call, a whore, youare mistaken. Not once have I used my body to pleasure others. Not once have I been paid to do filthy things and I can assure you that I am not the devils spawn!" I am furious, I take another step towards him and he backs up.

"I was taken there when I didn't know where else to go! I don't remember anything. I can't remember anything. Somebody was actually trying to help me...or take advantage of me... I'm not sure anymore." One more step, I take one more step and his back hits the wall. I could care less. I take another step.

"And another thing if those whores had to go through anything like I did, then I'm sure they're not doing it of their own free will... Nobody deserves to be treated like that..." Suddenly I realize something. My blood begins to boil, I take one more step and am toe to toe with Noah. I stare angrily into his eyes.

"What were you doing there Noah?" The sudden realization that he was there, that he was in a place that degrades women. A place where he is now scoffing at, what a hypocrite.

His eyes furrow. He opens his mouth to interrupt me.

I don't let him.

"You want to know what I think Noah... I think that the only thing that I can think of that could be worse than these whores that you're talking of, is a man who goes there to do those things. A man who could go there and do this." I lift my arm showing him my bandaged arm, ignoring the pain.

I can feel a darkness trying to fog my consciousness.

Noah looks down at me with confusion clouding his eyes. He suddenly leans his head back and grabs chunks of his hair and slowly lets go and balls his fists over his face.

"I don't know..." He mumbles. "I don't know..." He's a bit louder this time.

"I don't know why I was there." He throws his fists down by his side. "I don't know... I'm going to sound crazy!"

"Try me." I whisper. I'm no longer as angry as I was and seeing Noah look so confused has really dampened some of the fuel that was firing my rage.

Noah looks at me, really looks at me.

"I felt like I needed to be there. Like somebody was telling me to go there." He looked unsure of himself.

"I'd never been there before. I swear on my mothers life. It's not like I knew the inside of the building, but somehow I managed to find the stairs and walked up onto the roof... Seconds before you came up. Then I saw that you were going to jump and...and I just...I wasn't going to let that happen. Couldn't let that happen."

He placed his palms over his eyes and leaned his head back against the wall. He let out a soft groan.

"I know it sounds crazy. Half the time I think I'm crazy." He opens his eyes again, staring at me, waiting for my reaction. Waiting for me to tell him that I did think he was crazy. The thing is that I don't. It's not like I haven't had that feeling since I woke up in the woods. That exact same feeling.

" I don't think your crazy." I try to explain to him what I've been going through, but my mind has stopped wanting to cooperate. I feel the grogginess begin to envelope more of me. Blackness dances around my vision. The strength I had found earlier to stand was now gone. The pain ten times stronger. Unbelievably strong. My mouth gapes, unable to form coherent words. My vision completely blank now.

"Ezra?"

I wish I could reply but my consciousness eludes me.

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I'm so sorry I haven't been updating! I just had an amazingly hectic and wonderful summer and was shit-tired most the time.

Anyways I'll update more because I love this story! :]

Song for this chapter: Arctic Monkeys Fireside

Adios my friends! ~ Cosmic_Tears