-Fall in love with me, please- Wheesa; G×G

Mysterious girl

6th grade

I set on my usual spot in the bus plugging my earphones into my phone then putting them into my ear. Usually I would close eyes and relax the trip did last around forty minutes, but this time a certen girl catched my eye. She was so stunning. The morning light made her look like she was an angel send to earth.

"Eomma I wanna go to the art and dance high school downtown!" She said with her angelic voice. I could hear her since my song was changing. I decided thay from then on I'm gonna study art and dance.

I continued watching her all the way. She got out the same bus stop like me, but we parted there. I was going to my morning study lesson that parents send me to from now on everyday of this school year. I was home schooled, but I was going to a study lesson to have extra knowledge.

From that day on I saw her the angelic girl every damn morning. Even though life was starting to turn for the worse I still believed seeing that girl everyday in the bus was something good.

7th grade

I can't do it anymore. Every day I do the same thing, but I never see my parents only my teachers. I know they want the best for me, but this isn't the best for me! It's the best for them!

Atleast there's still the mysterious girl in the bus which by listening to hers and her friends conversation I learned her name is Ahn Hye jin. Such a perfect name it fits such an angelic girl. And yes I did continue my studying of arts and dance so did Ahn Hye jin. I learned more and more about her just by listening into their conversations- you might call me a stalker and you are right.

8th grade

Dad died. I never actually talked to him for long. Whenever he was home he would just ask about what I'm learning and if I re-read all my school books and that stuff. Ofcourse I was emotionally down, but at the same time it didn't hurt as much as it should...To be honest I didn't even know him well. I'm studying hard, but at the same time trying to make sure that I have time to study for art and dance.

The girl stopped having friends travel with her. Now she was alone just like me- Adleast I thought so, but then some girl which looked kinda like a guy set infront of her and called her a 'baby' and all that stuff, but I could see Ahn Hye jin didn't like that. She still let the girl touch her. Which made me jealous.

This school year Ahn Hye jin actually noticed me which was the only good thing about this year. She smiled at me atleast 11 times!

Also I came out as gay to my mom. Didn't go well. Mom isn't speaking to me now for over one month, not even asking about school.

9th grade

Home schooling is good, but it also sucks- A LOT. Mom hasn't been on a business trip she has just been at home sorting papers talking to me only a little bit. When I mean a little bit I mean only maximally two sentences a day. Now that would maybe be kinda normal if you both weren't home the whole day meeting eachother. I regret coming out so much! Such a stupid thing of me to do...

The angelic girl Ahn Hye Jin could only be seen a few times in the bus, but the good thing is that I found out she's actually going to go into the high school!

How will I get into there? I mean yes I probably know as much as her, but my mom wouldn't let me..

End of year:

"Jung Wheein!" Mom called she always uses the whole name like I was some person she didn't know. I didn't wanna see her, but I had to so I went to her. "Yes eomma?" She explained that she was going on a business trip for a year. This wasn't the first time so I wasn't that shocked but then she added "Also you will not be home schooled anymore you have to go to a high school." I was happy that maybe just maybe I could somehow go into the high school Ahn Hye Jin was going to do.

Right before mom was leaving she gave me a credit card "Choose yourself a good high school I don't have time for you and your stuff." She said coldly and left.

I felt miserable, but at the same time happy. The fact MY MOM said that really hurt, but I could choose a high school for myself! I signed up at the high school where Ahn Hye Jin was going to.

That's when it hit me. I will have to talk to people. It's not like I had problems talking to the teachers, but I never had any class mates. I decided I will just be that quiet girl in the class like on these shows I watched secretly. It wasn't my decision it was my anxieties decision.