Our Love Story

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I felt a hand grab my wrist.

"I came back."
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   I was mad. I was happy. I was sad. So many feelings in once. This is new. I thought to myself. He helped me climb back over to the other side. I started to feel safe. He held me in his arms. This was my safe place. His arms... they always comforted me.
      I let go. (Even though I didn't want to.)
"Why?" I said. "Why come back to remind me that you hurt me?"
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I just -I-I couldn't..." he sighed. "I was wrong. Mia. Okay I was wrong. I was wrong about you."

        I had this puzzled look on my face. I was trying to comprehend what Jack had just said to me. Did he mean what I thought he meant?
"Are-do you-how could-*sigh* huh?"

         He held me again. I could tell that this time he didn't want to let go."I came back for you..."he whispered in my ear. "I told my dad I couldn't once we walked into our new house. I didn't want anything to change... I didn't want us to change."

     I was. I didn't know what I was feeling. Then I said something I thought I would never say to Jack. I knew I had to though.

                     "I'm seeing someone..."

       I could see the pain in his eyes. It hit him. It hit him hard. I was disappointed in myself. I didn't think I would ever replace Jack. Then again he did say, that we wouldn't ever talk again. I don't know what got over me.

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                           Monday 6:37

I grabbed my hair tie, tied my hair, got my school books and walked out of my room downstairs. I saw my mom in the kitchen. She was taken Advil. Probably for her hangover from last night. I got a text, it's from Jacob.

Hey, I'm in front of your house. Come out I'm taking you to school.

Oh did I mention Jacob is the guy I'm seeing. I never really felt "love" for anyone, except for Jack, and I'm kinda unsure if that's how I feel about Jacob.

"Hey." I said.
He nodded his head my way and grabbed me by my waist and held it with a firm grip. "I missed you..." he whispered. I don't know why but I was kind of disgusted by that.
"Damn, I really wish we didn't have school, or else I would carry all the way up to your room, and stay there all day long."

I wanted him to let go of me. For some reason, I didn't feel comfortable with him doing that now. "Um I actually should walk to school." It was a hot day. I was wearing shorts, red vans, and a plain whit T-Shirt.

"In this heat? No way, look, let me just give you a ride." He let go of me as if to say I'm your boyfriend of course I'm taking you to school?! He walked towards his car. As he opened the door, I started to walk away. I didn't want to be anywhere near him anymore. He chased after me. "Wait-" he slightly paused.
"Did you cut your hair?" He asked.
I didn't say anything, I stood there for about 3 seconds and rushed away.
As I did, I heard him scoff. He walked back to his car and went the long way to school. I had a panic attack. I haven't had those since 9th grade. Now all of a sudden they're coming back!
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7:56

RINNNNGGGGG

Damn it!
I didn't study for the test. I knew I was going to get an F on the science finals. I walked toward room 206. I saw Jacob in the hall talking to Henry, one of his friends.
He started to walk to me. I tried not to notice and walk in the opposite direction, but he grabbed my arm and pulled me up against a locker. He then passionately kissed me, then it got down to my neck. I didn't want to, but I let out a moan. I put my arms around his neck to try and tell him to stop but he just pushed himself up against me.
Next thing I now, Jack taps Jacob on the shoulder and punches him. I was confused and was in shock. I didn't know what I should do. I didn't know what I could do!
"What the fuck Jack!"
He stared at me blankly as if he didn't just punch Jacob.
" I just-I couldn't stand it! He was all over you!" He said.
"I'm not yours to protect! You and I-we-we're done! We were never 'a thing' Jack! You don't have any right to do that!!"
"I was just-"
"Yeah I know what you were trying to do!"
"Mia-I'm sorry-"
"Jack- JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!"
"M-"
"NOW!"
He walked out of school. I stared at him. I fell on the floor against a locker, I sighed. I felt a tear start to form. I quickly wiped it away before anyone saw, my eyes red, puffy cheeks . Everyone was paying attention to Jacob, they didn't even see me. So I made the right decision and ran for the exit. I took my backpack and all. I didn't know where I would go... why I was going there... how I would get there... I just kept running and running, it never seemed to come to and end, when finally I ended up at the cemetery.

It was the cemetery that my dad was buried in. I walked over to the big oak tree, under there, that's where my father was buried. I stood there for a while just looking at the tombstone. I finally sat down, I had the courage to leave the note I had written when I was 15. It was a thank you note for the anklet. Again I began to cry, with the same hand I wiped my tears away. It's amazing how one hand can wipe away so many tears...
I rested my head on the grass, next to the tombstone. I watched the clouds pass by. I heard the birds chirping and the leaves rustling. The wind blowing. It was peaceful. I thought...my father would have enjoyed this.
"Dad, I hope your listening 'cause I need you I right now." I wiped away yet another tear. I sniffled then I continued. " I never got a chance to meet you. Or ever thank you for the anklet and everything. I just need you to know that...*sniffle* this is too hard. Life. People. Mom. Everything. I want to be with you. I need to be with you." I took out the note, kissed it and placed it on the grave.

"I love you..." My voice choked a little. "Never forget that. Daddy I love you, with all my heart."

I heard footsteps behind me. It was Jack. I couldn't do anything right now. I was numb.

"Hey." He said.
"Jack, I-"
He stopped me, he put his finger on my lips and looked at my eyes."Shhhh" He kissed me.
"You don't have to say anything, you don't have to apologize."
*sigh* I didn't know why he was still trying. I guess he really did care about me. I tried to speak but all that came out was...
"I broke up with Jacob."
He stopped hugging me and stared at me for a while. "Im so sorry I left, I never had a chance to explain myself."

"I really wanted you to know. I did this for you..."
"What?" I said
"Your father, he left me a note. He was good friends with my uncle. So I guess he knew you and I were going to know each other." He got the note out of his back pocket. "He knew that one day he was going to be gone, so he already had this planned."
I was completely speechless.
"Don't talk anymore, just stop..." I looked at him, his beautiful brown eyes.

I hugged him, this time I never wanted to let go. "Im sorry" A tear appeared, and he wiped it away from my eye.

"I'll never leave you again... I promise."