Some day, I promise you...(A Kokichi Oma and Shuichi Saihara story)

Internal Destruction

Kaito's pov

"Okay Kaito... ill tell you" he says looking at me

"Okay I'll listen to you i just want you guys to be okay." I explained

"Ever since i got back with Shuichi... I've been very iffy about things being the same between us." He said

"Well from i can tell its always been but I haven't seen him really since the killing game until recently." I told him

"Every time someone mentions what happened after the killing game to Shuichi i start to lose it in my mind. Now I'm starting to lose my sense of feelings for everything. I tried to find Shuichi once I recovered.. but he fell under radar.... i feel like i really fucked up on every thing and i feel like I'm nothing but a selfish prick." He said starting to tear up.

"Kokichi... Shuichi isn't telling you everything... right after the killing game... about 1 month after... Shuichi was sent to a mental hospital i found out from his uncle before he died. So yeah he had a few things wrong with him but he should be fine now because its been a while." I explained

"So... i did mess him up..." he said getting up

"No no Kokichi you didn't.... it wasn't your fault" i said

"What the fuck! How can you just say that!? I am to blame Kaito... i messed him up... its not fair.. but i messed up the way Shuichi looks at me i knew that much" Kokichi said

"Kokichi look... yes you may have done some unintentional damage but its not all your fault... you also have to understand that he was on a lot of pressure when we were all in the killing game." I explained

"I get that... but i just didn't wanna add up on it as well..." Kokichi said

"Look i get that..but you need to talk to him about this as well because it doesn't seem like hes the only one that is hurting from this" I explained

"I just hate myself for everything right now" Kokichi said scratching his arms

As he did that I noticed something i wish I wasn't so observant about. I saw some cuts as his sleeve accidentally went up slightly. I could help it. I grabbed his arms and forcefully rolled his sleeves up. His arms where covered in cuts and they looked fairly new and there was also some old scars.

"Kokichi... how long have you been doing this?" I asked

".... since the killing game started" he said shamefully

" why did you do this kind of thing.." i said

"Because Kaito I needed a way to get rid of my emotions... i even hid this from Shuichi even tho he has taken off my clothes before... " he said

"But... how?" I asked

"Stage makeup i know how to do that sort if thing since im a masters of disguise." He said

"Shuichi would be mad if he found out you did this sort of thing." I said

" I know... but I didn't wanna dump my problems onto him." He said

"But he's your partner..." i said

" you said it yourself Kaito he is under a lot of pressure... dumping my shit and problems on to him  isnt right... it will make the situation worse" Kokichi said

"Even so... im pretty sure he wants things to work out well for the both of you he was hoping to make you happy forever..." i said

"I find that hard to believe Kaito..." Kokichi said

"Okay now your just being unreasonable... Shuichi always tried to make you happy" i said

"What about that fucking 6 year period... i tried finding him but then i later find out he was sent away... i tried so hard to find him but it was just so hard especially with how many connections D.I.C.E lost because of my absence." He said

"Kokichi... im sorry but shut your mouth.. the fact is you tried and give Shuichi the chance to make things right... you already did by finding him even though you supposedly dead." I said

"I didn't even try hard enough...." Kokichi said looking away

I about had enough and i got up and looked at him. He kept looking away and i took this chance and slapped him. He had a shocked expression and just looked at me.

"I cant believe out of all people you're the one to fall into despair just because you cant fix things on your own..." i said

He just stared blankly and he didn't respond at all.

"Kokichi he loves you... he even waited... please dont be selfish... let him help you like you helped us back then." I said

"Okay...." he said

He got up and looked at me straight in the eyes and then slapped me. I didn't say anything and just looked at him

"That was for earlier.." he said

I smiled and looked at him "fair enough Kokichi, fair enough"

He looked away and kind just stood there until suddenly he hugged me out of no where.

"Im sorry for everything Kaito" he said

"Dont be just try to make things right and let him do his part. not all the time are things gonna be healed 100% of the time but you have to let him do some of the problem solving between you too as well." I explained

"Yeah... your right... i dont give him much credit huh?..." he said letting go

"You sometimes don't Kokichi but i know you give Shuichi credit most of the time." I said

"Well ima let Shuichi help me with this problem between us so this way we can work things out together... last thing i want is Shuichi doing something stupid because I screwed up somewhere." He said

"Well as long as you two get over this I'll support you both to end this little problem.. you both shouldn't be suffering if things can be figured out." I added

"Thanks Kaito I really appreciate the reality check... i needed that" he said

"Yeah no problem we are friends so im gonna help you in anyway i can." I said

"Thats good to know" he chuckled slightly

"Well lets go back inside... everyone is probably wondering what is going on since we are taking so long" i said

"Yeah good point lets go then" he said

We both started walking back inside. we sat back down and Kokichi just didn't say a word but he has content.. at least he's smiling but I didn't feel so sure if that was a real smile. I didn't ask or bothered him of course but... At least he looks happy. Lets just see how things play out between Shuichi and Kokichi