I have been feeling many things
about everything that has gone on.
Shocked
Angry
Sad
Stupid
Naive
I didn't want to believe that someone I thought I knew better than anyone else wasn't the person I thought they were—the entire time.
I have never felt this angry about something before. This is a different kind of anger. The betrayed kind; the hurt kind. I'm sad because I never would've thought someone was capable of doing that to the person who cared most about them. I was lied to. I feel stupid because I missed it while it was happening literally right in front of my face.
Right there in front of me.
Mostly I feel naive.
I should have known better; nobody is who they say they are. Not even someone you thought was supposed to be your best friend. I believe too much in innocence, that people aren't as fucked up as I guess they really are. I believe in the good in people. I guess we all eat lies when our hearts are hungry.
Gabsviolet // g.vio.g
