Words From Heart ♥

Emptiness (L)

Yeah, there are types of emptiness too that one feels.
Ranging from absolute to deep , absurd to reckless , calming to deafening. And who knows what...
The things that kills you slowly deeply.. and yet calmly
Have a look

Absolute emptiness, the utter loneliness , is really addictive. When you have no one with whom you talk heartly or talk at all for that matter. Not a single person around to say a hello. Because maybe you yourself are that way, who doesn't like to talk or connect or let one make any interaction. In starting it feels like you have no world around to live in but slowly you get used to it and with time become addicted to it.

Deep emptiness, when you have people all around you, yet it feels so uttee lonely. When everyone around you is all cheery making conversations and laughing and sharing hearts yet there you are all alone and empty. Where that loneliness resides deep in your heart, eating you slowly, gradually and painfully.

Absurd emptiness , when it seems entirely meaningless why you're feeling lonely. You are enjoying, having fun or busy conducting something maybe performing or doing something, yet that vague empty spot you feel, that it is not exactly what i want.. something is missing, the complete satisfaction is missin . That little vague emptiness is difficult to define.

Reckless emptiness, when you are all mess and chaotic and jumbling up everything. That restless feeling where you can't carry the burden anymore.. you want someone ,someone to whom you can pour your heart out. Or something that lets out all the frustration of not having anyone to accompany you, this is where self hurt comes. When people fail to find the escape of the emptiness, they start looking for the numbness instead , so that they don't feel anything anymore except that physical pain, from which they want, to consume them.

Deafening emptiness, where you entirely get tired of people. Where your unheard screams becomes the most silenced breathe. Where you restlessness becomes a mere black hole. Where nothing matters anymore and people become living robots. This is that same numbness that people sometimes recklessly seek. And this one is really dangerous.

And then comes..

Calming emptiness, where you feel yourself within your body. That soothing feeling of having no one to bother about, to care about. Having no one to hurt you or play you. When you start enjoying the absence of people that affects you. That  calming sensation of peace and that small decent smile playing on your lips while you sit on the rooftop enjoying the breeze and gazing at the sunset.

Would you believe ? If I said there are people who have experienced parts of each of them ?

Because ... There Are !!

- Hitakshi ^-^