For All Time

Aaliyah's diary-age 18

Dear Diary,

Susanne has told for a long time that as we grow older, our feelings for other people change. i didn't really didn't understand how that was even possible until now.

so you know Michael and have been best friends sense forever, and now that he is finally finished with his tour and now that i am finally finished with mine, I get the chance to see him more often. And when i tell you that he has gotten so good looking.................. I'm not even kidding.

See it all started last night when i went over to his house, over in Hayvenhurst, He and his brother was throwing a pool party.I've been to all the ones he threw in the past , and i've seen him in his trunks before so that wasn't the big deal. It happened when he asked me to come around the house with him, so i did and we started talking about our next albums, I told him that i haven't even started working on it yet. He was finally working on his first solo album and needed some help with it. I started telling him about how i was gonna start writing my songs instead of just letting Motown write them for me, which mean't that I was leaving Motown sooner or later. So we sat down on the hill father out to where the woods were, and we watched the sunset, I looked over at him and that's when it hit me. That's when i realized how beautiful he had gotten. And I never noticed it before because he was friend, that's all i saw him as was a friend, almost like a brother. But then when I saw how his eyes twinkled in the sunset and how his smile just made me melt all over, I realized something....i want to love him........I want to be his girl.

But the thing Michael isn't the type for an realtionship, He can't even imagine himself in one neither. i never understood why, He just seem so sensitive. Like he was afraid of it or somthing, and I know His parents are having trouble in their marriage now, I remember the day he called me telling me about it.He told me that he could never trust any one the way married couples do, I hate that he would've never said that to. Because he might not know it himself, but he trust me more the he trusts his own mother. Some of the things he tell me I can't imagine him telling his mother at all.I think the reason why he's so quiet is because he doesn't know how to express in any other way then his music. I can Understand that because I'm the exact same way. I think he needs someone to love him, to understand him,............to save him.

And I think that's where I come in. It's his birthday and he turns nineteen I think I'll start my saving today:)

Crossed fingers

                                                                                                                 Aaliyah dana

                                                                                                                          August 29, 1977

Chapter 1 coming soon.:)