Doodles of my mind

Reach

I think I fell in love
With someone who never knows
What I feel when they smile
And what I think when they laugh.

I think I fell in love
With one of my best friends
But let him know not
The feelings I hide
Because these feelings are the type of feelings that are one of a kind
Not for him or her or the world to understand
They're just for me and my thoughts and my mind.

I know I fell in love
With someone who can't comprehend the signals and signs I try send
He can not reciprocate the depth of feelings I get from his eyes
Nor would he reciprocate the same laugh or smile
If he knew what it felt like to love but never speak.

I know I fell in love,
But I'll deny the fact if you ask me,
Because why else would you
Randomly pop into my head at 4 am
Why else would you
Give me shivers when I think of you
And why else would
I love you regardless of the fact that I can't ever have you.
Regardless of how much I try.

I know I'll always be a friend.
Because I always love the things that I can't reach
Like the moon and the sea
Like the stars and the breeze
Like you who loves somebody else
Somebody who is not me.
Somebody who will never be me.

But you're fine with that.
And so I should be too.
To keep you happy and oblivious to the love I hold for you.
So when I say "I love you too"
It will never hold the same meaning for me as it does you.

So I think I fell in love
With the concept of having you to myself.
I fell in love with the concept that for
Once I could reach
The moon and the sea
And the stars and the trees.

But then again they can't ever reach me.