Amnesia >> M.C

III

~ Infinity's POV~

I was just lounging around on my bunk, my laptop was on my lap and I had my pair of bright neon blue beats on as I was video chatting with my new found boyfriend Andy, no not Andy Biersack, all thought that would be pretty great. "So, how's tour been so far babe?" He asked me as I ran a hand through his black hair, moving his fringe out of his eyes. "Well.. tour is tour babe, I just miss you a lot." I said with a small giggle. "I'm sure you do." He said jokingly and I playfully rolled my eyes at him. Andy and I have only been together for a little over four months, and so far he's been the sweetest guy ever, well he's not as sweet as Michael was when we were together, but I wont get into that, and he's been there for me through everything and I'm so happy to be able to call him mine.

"So, how're things back home? Anything new going on with you?" I asked him, but he just shook his head. Well that's a shocker, usually nothing new happens with him, and when something does it's not really exciting. The only thing I hear that's new about Andy, is from all of his friends, and you want to know what that's usually about? About some girl he's cheating on me with or some things that he's said about me behind my back. Even though he's so sweet to me, he becomes a total douche bag behind my back, but yet I don't tell him that I know all of these things because well, I'm a little desperate when it comes to have a relationship, and well as the English professor said in 'The Perks Of Being A Wall Flower' "We accept the love we think we deserve" and ever since I lost Michael.. I really don't think that I deserve any, but Andy has been showing me wrong, to a certain extent that is.

"Nope, its been the same old same old here." Lies, I thought to myself, you're probably sleeping with some aren't you? Of course it wouldn't surprise me if he was. "Oh, I see, well things aren't really that special or new here either.. in fact things are pretty old and annoying." I said, of course meaning Michael, but he doesn't really need to know that unless he absolutely wants to hear about it. "Anyways babe, I actually have to get going, we all have to go to the venue to perform soon so I'll talk to you later." I said as I waved at him and he waved back. "Okay baby girl, bye! I love you! Have fun on tour!" He said, flashing me a sweet smile before I finally ended our video call and closed my laptop, taking my headphones off of my head.

"Why do I even put up with him?" I whispered to myself as I shook my head a bit... but then the sound of soft singing and a guitar being played caught my attention and I carefully jumped down from my bunk and pressed my ear up against the door to the backroom and could hear Michael and the lads singing and working on a song probably. "This song is pretty great Mikey, how'd you get the inspiration to write it?" She heard Luke ask, but yet she didn't hear what Michael had said, all she could hear was something about him being fine and girlfriend. "Oh... so he has a girlfriend now..." I mumbled to myself. Wow, way to go and start making assumptions Infinity, we don't know if he even has one, you probably just heard him wrong, I thought to myself, but yet the idea of him having a girlfriend didn't really seem like something that couldn't be happening. After all Mikey is a pretty great looking guy, he's very sweet and down-to-earth, any girl would be lucky to have him... I was lucky to have him. They say that everyone only accepts the love that we think we deserve, but right now? I wish that I deserved his again, but I now that I don't and that I never will.