August and I sat across from each other just staring, not saying a word.
"Say something."
I said, nearly whispering.
"There's nothing more for me to say."
His bags sat in the entrance hallway of our home while 1 of his numerous side-chicks was blowing up his phone. I stared at it as he stared at me. It was intensely quiet and it was making me go crazy on the inside.
"So you're just going to walk out on me? On Us? On our child?"
"I'm not walking out on our child."
"But you're walking out on us? Did these last 3 years mean nothing to you?"
"They meant everything to me, but I'm not the one for you Tammy."
"What am I supposed to do without you? You're all I know."
I can't believe I was begging this man to stay, but I have no one else besides our daughter Eva Brenae.
"You're going to have to learn to know something else. I have to go."
He stood as his phone continuously vibrated. I stood also and ran to the door blocking him from leaving.
" Tammy move man."
"August you're not leaving me. We need to work this out!"
"Lower ya damn voice our daughter is sleeping."
"Clearly you don't care about her since you're leaving her!"
He slammed me against the door and got in my face.
"Don't you EVER in your fucking life even THINK to say some shit like that! I love my fucking daughter to pieces and you know it! I don't have to be with ya golddigging ass to be in her life!"
"Golddigger?! When have I EVER asked you to take care of me August?! Huh?!"
"Bitch move."
He pushed me to the side and reached for his bags, but I kicked them out of reach. He took a deep breath.
"I'm trying not to lay ya ass out, but you making shit hard."
"I wish you would!"
"Who you gon' call if I did? The police? You have nobody else. Bitch I made you who you are and gave you everything you got. Don't ever forget that shit. Now get the fuck upstairs and out my damn face."
Tears brimmed and eventually fell. Out of all the times we got into it, it's NEVER been this bad. I looked away and began walking to the stairs.
"I'm sorry Tammy, but you deserve better."
With that said he walked out the door and I didn't know if I would ever hear from him again. How did we get here? Let me take ya back to the beginning. Maybe someone can tell me where we went wrong..
You guys like it?? The title comes from August’s song “You Deserve” off of his album Testimony. It stars him (of course) and Tammy from Love and Hip Hip Atlanta.
