not everything is rainbows.

38 // Suicide

I immediately ran into our room. I closed the door swiftly. Today, I was gonna glam up. Well, not really, but a small bit. I look through my closet. Oh wait! I slip out of my room and quietly into Alyssa's. After assuring that she wasn't in there, I grab out a pair of her fishnets. I slip out, just as quiet. Once I'm back in my room, I realize something terrible. My dress is a zipper. In the back.
I run to the living room and thankfully, Alyssa's there! So is Scott, Sky, and Autumn though. They're clearly in an important discussion so when I stumble in, they all shoot their heads up. Alyssa and Sky offer a sheepish grin. Scott stares at his feet and Autumn looks at me with an annoyed glare.
Sky coughs out, "Can I be of assistance?"
I nod, "Yes, thank you."
He gets up and and speed walks behind me on the trail to my room. As soon as I close the door, he says, "Autumn does not like you."
I chew on my lip, "Why?"
He sighs, "Because Rodney told her that you hurt Scott."
I crinkle my eyebrow, "Who's Rodney?"
Sky admitted, "My cousin. He's Scott's best friend, that's how I met Alyssa. But anyway, Scott told Rodney the day he walked out on you that he left that he was regretting it already. And Rodney told Autumn and Autumn got the words twisted, I guess."
I take a deep breath, "Nice."
Sky goes on, "Scott said that he hurt you, not the other way around, but then Autumn said you manipulated him."
I scratch my ear, "Okay."
He sighs, "Need help with that?" He points to my dress, which was sorta shrugged off my shoulders.
I pull it back up so it wouldn't fall when unzipped and said, "Yes, please." As soon as he unzips it, he salutes me and walks out.
I quickly rip off the dress and pull on the fishnets. Then I pull on a pair of very ripped black jeans and toss them on. I then walk over to Scott's bag that he dropped off before the wedding, (Pops told me.) and pull out his shirt that has the Vans logo and slogan on it. I take a deep inhale of his leftover scent before pulling it over my hair. I tuck it into the high waisted jeans and slip on some old school Vans. I take down my hair and immediately put it into a high ponytail. It was very wavy and looked great. I freshened up my makeup and put on red matte lipstick. I looked like a snack! I chuckle at myself before walking out of the room and into the living room.
Alyssa whistles and Sky claps. Alyssa bellows, "What a babe!"
Scott smirks at me and mouths the word, "Hottie."
I chuckle and say, "Lets go clubbing!" Alyssa is wearing a short black dress with red lipstick that look awfully familiar to the one I lost. Sky has on his wedding pants and a black button down. Scott has black ripped jeans and a maroon shirt. Autumn has on a black cocktail dress with a ruffly bottom. I smile at our group. Mostly everyone smiles back, and by that I mean Autumn gave me a death glare.
Scott comes up and takes my arm. He leans down and whispers, "My shirt looks even better on you. Although it'd probably look best off." I giggle and hit his arm, and he just smiles and we walk to the car.
I climb into the back after Scott. In the front, Sky gets in the drivers side and Alyssa in the passenger. And Autumn is right. by. me. I offer a tight grimace. She smiles, feigning. Scott's hand is rested on my knee, but he's leaning on the door and tapping on his clenched jaw. I reach and put my hand in his, but that gave Autumn a really dirty look. I retract my hand which makes Scott turn his head. He said, "Autumn. Just back off. I like her, don't fuck this up for me." I look at him, he was stern, then back at her. She was so shocked. Ha! My boyfriend likes me. I grip my hand back onto his as she closed her mouth. He rubs circles with his thumb around mine. The small gestures are the sweetest.
When I walked into the club, the same scent hit me. Sweat, smoke, weed, alcohol, cheap perfume, and a few undertones of sex. Scott had let go of my hand as he asked, "Want a drink?"
I shook my head. "I'm the designated one here." He lets out a deep chuckle as he walks off to go get a drink. I turn to Autumn, who motions for the door. I nod as we walk outside. The air is salty and humid, which is probably ruining my hair. I tighten my ponytail self consciously and clear my throat, waiting for Autumn. She sighs, "Listen, Rachel.. Scott has a lot of issues. Has he told you about our late sister?"
I feel a dagger of pain shoot down my chest as I kneel down, where Autumn is already sitting on the curb. She said late with a dark cloud over it and I will never think or hear the word the same way. I choke on air and say, "He's mentioned her."
She nods and continues, "Did he tell you that it was a suicide pact?"
I am stunned instantly, "W-What?"
Ignoring my reaction, she goes on, "My baby sister was best friends with a girl. They did everything together, and they both looked so happy. Although, clearly, they weren't. Leslie told my sister she was killing herself, and so my sister told her she didn't have to do it alone.." It's Autumn's turn to choke on nothing. As she starts to tear up, she says, "So they jumped off of the roof of the school, where they met."
I nod slowly, as a question flows from my mind to my mouth, "Who was the girl?"
Autumn grimaced, "Scott's. She was Scott's girlfriend. Scott's best friend. Scott's first kiss. Scott's first lover. She left him in the dust. So did my sister. Scott seemed depressed, but no one knew the extent. No, no one knew. But then one night I got a call. It was from the police department. My dad was high out of his mind and my mom was off 'mourning my sister.' The officer explained to me that Scott had tried to hang himself in a park near the school. When I asked him why he didn't just go to the school, he said that he had his first kiss at the tree he tried to..." Autumn lets the tears pour now, "Kill himself."

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