black sunshine {yoonseok, sope} Complete

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Starry nights and broken eyes,
"I will be right by your side
We'll be together, forever and always"
He said disappearing away.

(I'm sorry for this bad poem :<
I just made this in less than 10 mins and I'm not good at poems)

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When you say that you love me

Love. What is love? People try their best to explain their own definition of the word 'love'. We can't really tell which of the definitions are real because all of us don't know the real definition of 'love'.

What does it mean to love and be loved by someone? Should we take it sexually? Romantically? Or what? It's funny, really. How people try to define 'love' based on how they want their 'loved ones' to treat them. Pathetic. People who are lonely just gives up and tell people 'love' is stupid. Others, well, they just try to rationalize 'love' into scientific shit.

Honestly, love's is simple. Love is a thing that every person has, it's like an emotion towards people -- romantically or not. An emotion that tells you how to treat a person- actually, scratch that. It's complicated as fuck. Not only love is complicated, the consequences of loving a person is, too, a complicated thing to feel -- pain, loneliness, and sadness.

{ I h8 intros, too dramatic but anywaaaaaaays that was already Yoongi's POV on what 'love' is.
P.S. I was just lowkey putting words there lmao }

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Yoongi woke up on a bed, like always. He sits up and pain started to spread on his whole being, especially on head.

Fuck, he was having a hangover. He looked at the glass door beside him to see a balcony outside it and the sun hitting his eyes. Because of this, he covered his eyes with his hands.

He looked around the room and he noticed something -- it wasn't his room. He quickly glanced the bed to see a man, a stranger, beside him completely naked.. like him. He quickly collected his clothes and started to dress with it. He left the apartment without any trails.

He looked like shit, he admit. Yesterday was just another drunk and messed up day. Another day to fuck-and-run with another stranger. He's been like this since his sunshine turned into a black sad storm.

With a headache, Yoongi walked to his apartment to clean himself because g**damn(we are a christian community for fucksakes🙏), he was dirty. He showered and dressed up to eat at his normal diner.

Feels like I'm walking across the sky

Yoongi was close to the diner when he remembered he forgot his wallet. What a fucking good start for the day.

He decided to walk the other way, where he has to walk through a park, feeling that he needed to walk and clear his mind before he eats.

Walking through the park, seeing some of the parents' kids avoid him with their child. He's used to it now. He avoided their glances and looked up on the beautiful sky above him while making sure he's in the right path.

Looking up, he was reminded by his sunshine, Jung Hoseok. It breaks his heart even more, his chest pained increased a bit, his eyes tearing up, but he honestly enjoys the thought of Jung Hoseok in his head.

He stopped, took a deep breathe. He opens his eyes and sat on a bench nearby. He closes them again then a memory popped up:
He remembers something very important to him. He remembered when they both walked on that very park, holding hands and laughing like idiots. That moment Yoongi felt something different, he felt a different kind of happiness. He felt like nothing and no one was there, he felt like they were walking across the sky.

Yoongi cried, he knows that it's stupid. He knows that it's just really stupid to cry about a dull memory of him and his sunshine.

Tell me about forever, just one more time

He tried to stop. He tried to stop crying, he tried to stop remembering. Unfortunately, he was too weak. For the past couple of minutes, he cried. After a few more, he slowly calmed down.

He put his hands into his pockets and looked around the park. Many parents were looking at him but not with disgust like before, but with genuine concern which made him sick. He looked at the trees, expecting his Hoseok to pop out from there and smile at him. Nothing.
'Just tell me you love me again' he mumbled to himself.

He decided to walk towards the his apartment. His apartment was cold and dark. He got his wallet from his bedroom and went outside.

He got to the diner and was greeted by the staff, because he was a regular there. A waiter asked him what he would order -- "just coffee."

Lately, Yoongi hasn't been eating. How could he? All his hopes and dreams left him on  a sunday night 3 months ago. And the worst part was, he didn't know why he left. He just, did. He said he was unhappy. He said he was tired. He said that "this is what supposed to happen". He said "it was time" to leave. He broke his heart by leaving on that sunday night, on that special night... he left. He left without explaining why. He left saying he couldn't bear him anymore... he left with all of Yoongi's heart. It was truly heartbreaking, seeing someone you love leave.

Yoongi couldn't accept what happened. He couldn't accept that his sunshine would turn into a deep black storm that would haunt him. He felt ashamed and weak. The thought of never seeing him ever again made him angry and sad at the same time.

When you say that you love me

His breakfast was ready. The waiter put his order in front of him and told him to 'enjoy'. He displayed a sad smile to the waiter and the waiter smiled back and then started to walk away.

All he could think of was his used-to-be Hoseok.

He drank his coffee. The hot liquid made Yoongi's tongue burn. Though, he still continued to drink. Yoongi felt the hot liquid spread through him and it refreshed him. It was bittersweet, like how it felt with Hoseok.

He looked around the diner, seeing people mind their own business. He looked at the booth where there was a couple, eating breakfast together. He remembered that, that was the seat they used to sit everytime they were on the diner. He remembered that was the seat they first met, their first date. That booth was so special to him. It was.

Yoongi couldn't take anymore, he was going mad. All the things around him reminds him of his Hoseok. It reminds him of the one he love. He couldn't sleep. Couldn't eat. He was broken and he doesn't know how to mend this broken heart.

"Can you put it in my bill?" Yoongi said before he leaves, the staff nods. He left, hoodie on, hands on his pockets.

I just need those words

'I miss you' Yoongi said looking at the grave in front of him. He shed a tear and picked up their picture along with a black box "that you'll never change, just one more time." Yoongi fell down on the ground "I was supposed to give this to you on that night before, and then you left, I'm sorry" he said between sobs. The memory was still clear inside his head -- they were having a date that night, right before Yoongi was going to propose, Hoseok collapsed on the ground. He was announced dead on arrival. He had Arrhythmia(A/N go look it up).

"I'm sorry it was too late. I was supposed to love you forever."

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A/N
Hello! This is the author lmao
I know I know, it's a bad story I'm sorry :/
Pls tell me if there are any corrections, Thank you!