That Moment

that moment when you lay down in bed after the perfect day.....not realizing that it's your last......crying yourself to sleep when you finally realize it is.....wanting him back more than you could ever imagine....regretting the way you left......wanting him back.....back to the guy you feel in love with.....but not being able to do anything about it......watching as the love of your Life walks away with her....your worst enemy......the one who hates you the most.....all because you fell in love.....a year ago....that stupid mistake.......that you can never take back.

Preparing yourself for all the nights your going to be crying yourself to sleep. For all the pain of heartbreak that you'll be feeling. And then when you finally stand up again? All those conversations with your friends that are going to leave you starting over again.....with a fake smile plastered on your face. Crying yourself to sleep...every night.....missing him more than anything.....not eating......wishing you could know why...