The Light in My Dark- Liam Payne.

Depression

Background: The past year, I have been struggling with sadness. A lot of Changes in my life were happening, leaving me empty, lonely and confused all at once.
Liam has been the only thing getting me through these past months, but today it felt like nothing was enough.

Liam was performing and doing rehearsals all day, so I waited until he came home to let it all out.
Every tear, every yell. Liam was the only one who was actually emotionally  strong enough to sit with me and hold me close while I lost control.
"Liam I can't, it all feels too different, I don't feel at home." I said, staring down at the floor. I buried my head in my hands. Liam rubbed my back.
"hey, hey it's okay sweetheart." He said.  I shouted this time. 
"No! No Liam it is not okay! I've made too many mistakes in only eighteen years! I am SUCH a screw-up!"
Liam just stared at me, sadness and worry took over his expression. I stared at him for a while, then to the floor. "Look, I'm sorry Liam, sometimes I feel like a total fuck-up. Sometimes I feel bad for you and my family members always having deal with me and my shit."
Liam looked at me with his "are you kidding?!" Expression.
"Delaney, hold on, stop okay? You have been through a lot of shit this year and years before. You just don't cope with all the stress and sadness your life has brought you. You keep it inside because nobody understands. You need to learn to cope instead of letting your anger out on people.
It's okay, I believe in you. I know you can do it."
I looked at him and smiled. He held me close to his body again.
"I don't know how you or anyone does all this for me. I love it."