Have you ever felt a pain so severe that you are unable to move, laying there, starring at your ceiling, the pain of daggers in your heart, feeling like the world is being held up by only your chest, and not being able to shed a tear because there are no tears left? Have you ever felt a pain where you become numb, and empty, and you feel like you are in a constant state of drowning, not being able to breathe, and not being able to die?
That is the pain that love causes.
As a child we learned a unrealistic idea of love, the idea of perfectionism in relationships. Now we face the truth that love is horribly amazing. It can make you feel alive, it can make the world seem brighter, or it can make you feel dead, and send you spiraling into darkness.
This is why I must run. I want to stay but I need to go. This love I'm caught up in will destroy me if I do not go. So I will run.
