does an nerd fall in love?

the beginning

Warning this story is not for the faint of heart if you are looking for any of that lovey lovey shit I strongly suggest you go find another book.

My name is Ray and this is my story.
Entry one of many
Dear diary
Today marks the one year anniversary of my gang The Bruised Rose. We are known in town but no one knows that I am the leader every one thinks that I am the school nerd that gets bullied all the time. The only reason I let them think they are in charge is to keep my ID an secret Because so far no one knows whoa in the gang they just no that we sent to be messed with. See no one knows the real me the girl who was forced to witness her best friends parents murder her family in cold blood. This is what happened all those years ago. Me and my former best friend at the time were 5 and it was two days before Christmas break this was back when I lived in Hamilton New York the city was beautiful at that time of year. When you walked around the city you could see house after house all decked out for the holidays it was amazing it was like living in an actual snow globe.I loved it there and the giant like 20 foot tree in the town center was absolutely amazing the way the lights shined so bright and the way the ornaments were placed so perfectly not to mention the garland was so amazing and they wrapped it around the tree perfectly. Little did I know that my mom and dad were gonna be murder because of something they didn't do.when I got home with my older siblings which happened to have been twins they were both 10 at the time.we didn't get home until around sunset. When we got in the house we saw our mom and dad chained to an giant metal ball on the ground arms chained above there heads being forces to eat human feces by my former best friends parent's. When they saw us standing their with an mix of horror and disgust on our faces they just burst out laughing and so did she Mei my former best friend.they told my siblings to go stand by mom and dad and told me to sit in an chair. Once they were standing In front of the wall by our parents they were quickly chained to the wall as well and gaged so they couldn't cry for help. As for me I was chained to an metal ball that weighed three time as much as me I was then gaged and handcuffed to the chair with my hands behind my back. Well all but one hand was behind my back and the hand that was free was used to spin a wheel.the first thing the wheel landed on was hot shoes which were an size too small and made of iron they would stick the shoes in the fireplace then on my mom's feet.The only thing I could hear at that time was my mom's scream which made my blood run cold and the thought of it still does. Her face contoured into an look of pain and every time she would scream they would thrust an hunting knife used for gutting big game in to various parts of her body the first part was her abdomen followed by her cleaveage. They made me spin the wheel again and this time it was my older sisters turn the wheel landed on having an extremely hot and sharp machete shoved up her arse she wanted to scream but she couldn't through the gag. After her was my brother he got his eyes gouged out and his testies then he was forced to eat it. Unfortunately that wasn't it for my brother they also took the gag out of his mouth and orally raped him before cutting an giant T on his upper body and bleeding out as they ripped out his organs my sister bled out from her arse because of how far they stuck the machete up her arse.next was my dad and the wheel landed on having his organs removed one by one.they took him off the wall and chained him to my small purple bed they cut an I shape in his upper body and started taking out all his organs one by one forcing me to watch as the slowly killed my dad they took out all but a few organs when they stuck parasites in him and let him sit there and rot. Last they killed my mom by doing what they did to my sister and my dad to her but they raped her first. They told me they got what they deserved for pretending to be pour when in fact they were trillionaires. After I watched them murder my family they told me that if I told the police the truth they would hunt me down and kill me. Once they were done with that they left me alone out side after burning my house down and calling the cops.